Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
so, I am back on bupe.. this is my third TRY but I am confident that I will come out on top; the longest I've been clean (truly away from dope) was 9 months and that is when I last OD'd in 2013 and was checked into the ER and then a mental psych because when I woke up in the ER my mom was there crying and the Dr. heard me say to her, "ma, youre making me wish I died". well, that is surly something you should NEVER say in front of a Dr.
my first try at bupe I started at 16/MG/day of the PILL FORM and it was working great but I dropped so quickly over the 9 months that once I got to 4MG I ended up back on the dope train, so I am in no rush to drop my dosage or get off bupe this time; ill stay on it for life if I have to.
but I am asking about dosage because I am wondering how you figured out best what works for you? I am scripted 16/MG/day which I know is a heavy dosage they say, but I was shooting 1-2G's daily, so I think its somewhat inline with what my dope habit was. however, there are days where I feel on top and actually "good" about life.. then there are days where ill take the same dosage but I am just down, out, dragging ass all day and ready to blow my head off, ya know!? ha. today being ONE OF THOSE NEGATIVE DAYS!
I took my first 8MG at 8AM and already down another 8MG at 1130AM just hoping it would pick me up and bring me back to myself. I am sitting here at my desk at work not wanting to do a damn thing but look for ways out of this miserable life I put myself in due to my addiction problems. I wish I could kick all these drugs and walk away but I just cant; I tried and always came back, so if I can manage w/ bupe then so be it, but right now even managing w/ bupe is not as easy as it once was/looked.
my first try at bupe I started at 16/MG/day of the PILL FORM and it was working great but I dropped so quickly over the 9 months that once I got to 4MG I ended up back on the dope train, so I am in no rush to drop my dosage or get off bupe this time; ill stay on it for life if I have to.
but I am asking about dosage because I am wondering how you figured out best what works for you? I am scripted 16/MG/day which I know is a heavy dosage they say, but I was shooting 1-2G's daily, so I think its somewhat inline with what my dope habit was. however, there are days where I feel on top and actually "good" about life.. then there are days where ill take the same dosage but I am just down, out, dragging ass all day and ready to blow my head off, ya know!? ha. today being ONE OF THOSE NEGATIVE DAYS!
I took my first 8MG at 8AM and already down another 8MG at 1130AM just hoping it would pick me up and bring me back to myself. I am sitting here at my desk at work not wanting to do a damn thing but look for ways out of this miserable life I put myself in due to my addiction problems. I wish I could kick all these drugs and walk away but I just cant; I tried and always came back, so if I can manage w/ bupe then so be it, but right now even managing w/ bupe is not as easy as it once was/looked.