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How did ecstacy change your life?

xabalba said:
i was diagnosed with schizophrenia and and deep depression 4 yrs ago and for the first two years my life was hell i was that depressed that i tried killing myself more than once, than i discovered the joy of xtc for once in my misserable life i was happy and i drop pills every weekend and as a result i have stopped taking my anti depressants because xtc is helping me more than they ever did.
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xabalba - please be careful, I'm so happy for you that ecstacy has helped you out of a dark place but rolling every weekend could mess you up in the long-term. I hope you've addressed whatever it was that made you so depressed in the first place. Depression unfortunately has a high relapse rate (trust me I know personally) and taking pills so often may not help those odds. Sorry to be a downer but just be safe with it.

For me, ecstacy allowed me to become very close with the friend I did it with the for first time. We were good friends before then but since have shared so much and I know that I have a friend that I can really trust and cares for me. Prior to this I always found it difficult to open up to people but since this I find it so much easier and feel I am a better friend to all my friends.

When I'm on ecstacy I can look at things without fear or cynicism and with more openess. I can still hold onto this feeling when I'm straight now and it's really changed me and how I look at life. I'm so much more positive now and don't let things get me down the way they used to, sounds cheesy I know but it really has changed my life for the better.
 
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I have tried smoking weed, drinking, but when I met MDMA, I fell in love. I quickly became educated on MDMA and am a frequent user of pillreports, ect. I know exactly what is going into my body. I enjoy ecstasy more than most, and still get excited when I am going to roll. After 4 years of rolling, I can say the effects have changed quite dramatically. I have built a tolerance and sometimes get grouchy when its that time again. I have been trying to spread out my ecstasy use, and have found myself to be less moody. My birthday is coming up and I am planning to roll balls:)
 
MDMA was just amazing, the 5-6 times I've tried it. It gave me a new view on my life, on my prospects, family, friends and so on. On music, specifically.

It truly gave me some insight, that other drugs lack. I believe my horizons was opened more widely, opened my mind up to new ideas and such. I feel more free, and more optimistic about most things, than I did before, and more comfortable with myself..
I've tried to spread out use, usually I don't have to though, because its not very available here. I never trip on MDMA more than 3 or 4 times per year.
 
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xabalba - please be careful, I'm so happy for you that ecstacy has helped you out of a dark place but rolling every weekend could mess you up in the long-term. I hope you've addressed whatever it was that made you so depressed in the first place. Depression unfortunately has a high relapse rate (trust me I know personally) and taking pills so often may not help those odds. Sorry to be a downer but just be safe with it.

For me, ecstacy allowed me to become very close with the friend I did it with the for first time. We were good friends before then but since have shared so much and I know that I have a friend that I can really trust and cares for me. Prior to this I always found it difficult to open up to people but since this I find it so much easier and feel I am a better friend to all my friends.

When I'm on ecstacy I can look at things without fear or cynicism and with more openess. I can still hold onto this feeling when I'm straight now and it's really changed me and how I look at life. I'm so much more positive now and don't let things get me down the way they used to, sounds cheesy I know but it really has changed my life for the better.
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for sure bro he's right xabalba rolling everyweekend can lead to a bigger deppresion.
 
Since that moment I feel im a changed person. I never use to dance but now i dance for no reason. Not a big deal maybe but a change very much so.
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I totally forgot this. I used to be very nervous and hesitant when it came to dancing. only when I was very drunk did I decide to cut loose and flop around like a fish.
ever since that special saturday, I find myself dancing whenever I feel like it. I don't even care that I suck. I decided to work at dancing like I would any skill, and have started practicing at home a lot. =D And yea, I love the complete lack of judgment towards others/things when on e. I've been trying to incorporate that into my sober life, as I can be a bit of a dick, which I don't really like, it just pops out.
 
for some odd reason Ex never has had any effects on me... even when everyone else around was puking guts up their guts- SUCKS FOR ME
 
E has changed my outlook on life and I thank God, Allah, Buddha, A. Shulgin
and those Germans at Merck for this chemical.

I fell into the dance music, rave/club life thanks to a friend over 11 years ago.
The music became a joy, an obsession, a new direction in my life.
Going to warehouse parties, raves, and clubs was a lifestyle.
At raves I was exposed to dealers selling E and other things like K.
I never went for it. Actually ignored it because I didn't feel like it could
better an already amazing life I was leading. Ravin in my 20s.
The PLUR vibe was still there but I could see how faded people were on drugs.
I was high on the music..Truly. The joy from that is part of me and undeniable.

Years later- The music is still doing it for me. Then I started getting nostalgic
of my rave years. Somewhere I started thinking "What was that E thing all
about?". Curiosity led to pursuing it and I finally had a chance to get some
this year. That first time opened up feelings and sensations that I never
knew existed. The everything's gonna be alright vibe, yeah?
The way it makes everyday things completely and unexpectedly amazing.
Sights, smells, sounds- all enhanced.
The chemical is synergistic with music. I really believe this.
It has helped me see through people and situations. Like it decodes the subtext of life. I am thankful for my experiences with it.

And that wicked grin that fell on my face still pops up time to time.

Roll on Rollers :)

btw. this thread has made me so happy! thank you all for sharing your thoughts.
 
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over my abusive years, i had begun the addiction/lifestyle of on ecstasy. a lot of times i tweaked out of my mind at raves, mainly speed/meth pills. a couple times i almost got arrested in raves. i've been near group fights, people (including myself) overdosing, stabbing, weird and cool people. i treated every trip as an experience, to look around the world and people. i've had happy and sad times. sadly the magic doesn't last forever, i will continue to live my life.
 
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