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How did ecstacy change your life?

Hoes call me santa said:
I really think mdma changed my life because it helped me connect with some old friends i haven't talk to. I had a good friend 4 years ago, at school, but we stopped talking to eachother the next year because we weren't in the same classes anymore. I talked to him again this year and found out he smoked weed, and i did it, so he invited me over at his house a couple time with some other great friends, and one night we just decided to drop e together and we just connected so much. Now i speak to this guy everyday and really like him, it sort of made me realize how great of a friend he was.
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haha, i can relate to that:)
 
it let my normal intraverted yet entirely empathic personality be realised in a social environment. thats carried on ever since i realised that fully. i cant explain in words how much that changed how i can relate to people now, but i think its pretty life changing.
 
yup. e led the way in my recovery from emotional cripple intravert to wherever the hell i am now! where i am now is pretty damn good, so im thankful :D
 
yeah but im just posting everywhere i see the opportunity to kill time while i wait for a drop off :P
 
Mystery Brew said:
To me it just felt like another drug. sure it felt awesome and at peace with everyone and everything, so did I on cocaine, even though they acted differently on the receptors. point being that its just a substance and other substances can make you feel good about yourselves somewhat too. I do understand it as a somewhat empathetic psychedelic being able to love your self while on it and now knowing the ability to love your self is there. But a drug is a drug
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Maybe you are using E, perhaps subconsciously with the intention of "doing drugs"?
 
I think MDMA is much more likely to "change" your life if you only do it once. I think that kind of keeps a unique perspective on the feeling you get on MDMA.
 
ecstasy helped me in the fact that it showed me to think about a lot of things more rationally. before i did e for the first time, i was in a bad depression. It showed me that it was pointless, what's in the past is in the past now and its finally time to move on. I now apply that to daily situations in my life. When i did e for the first time, was when i decided to become vegan as well, which was one of the best decisions i've ever made. It feels good.
E also helped me find my soul mate.
Every time i do mdma, i learn something new about myself and my sub concious and learn from it. That's why it's such a fucking beautiful drug.
 
Pros:
Confidence, knowing how to have an awesome time, knowing how important it is for you to take care of yourself and everyone else around you, knowing you're not superman (or woman in my case) and sometimes you just have to stop trying to achieve the goals others set for you and instead become your own free being. Making new friends and having deep conversations with them, realising all your hang-ups were stupid and you're beautiful and everyone else is too/realising you've been a stupid dick and getting the chance to put right all the things you originally put wrong.

Cons:
Life without frequent rolling now seems rather dull. Some people must judge me for what I do, as it's such a controversial drug. I sometimes feel a bit guilty because my dad said he'd hate me to 'eat chemicals' (I have a superstrong best matey relationship with him, so feel kinda like I'm betraying him sometimes - but then the E starts talking to me: "you're your own person, be who you want to be, do what you want to do etc etc). I always want more, probably way too soon, and the wait until I can roll again... sucks. One day I might lose the magic :( Sure hope not.
 
The third time I took pills life suddenly made sense. I used to be so uptight and worried but ever since I can just relax and take life for the ride it is.
 
Goood question! :D It changed my life in the sense that I feel more connected with myself. I really cannot explain it, because I doubt that many people will fully understand what I, myself, feel.
 
I wanted to wait till the afterglow of my last E session was gone before responding to this. I feel there is a definite shift in my cognition. I feel like I have a new appreciation for life. Meeting new people is a little nerve-wrack at first, like it always was, but I'm not afraid of the anxiety, cause I know what it's like to not feel it. I haven't felt any of the extreme frustration or anger towards society and myself that was eating away at me for the past year. Even when things that cause those feelings arise, I am in more control, and don't let them eat at me or continue thinking about them.

I feel like Ecstacy has taught me something, that while I may not be able to replicate, I have an ideal in my mind how I would like to interact with the world. Like someone who's witnessing a really good dancer or a piece of graffiti for the first time. They may not be able to that, but they have that archetype in their mind.

And I disagree that normal life seems more dull. Yea, it's not all AMAAAZING like on e, but the contrast in what I feel on E with how mentally distraught I was beforehand, has really put some things in perspective for me.
 
My first true experence with x was during a candy flip this summer. Most dont recommend it and i hadnt planned on it just got in my head that this is what i was meant to do that night while i was tripping. All i can say is wow, 22 years of life and for various reasons never did this!

Since that moment I feel im a changed person. I never use to dance but now i dance for no reason. Not a big deal maybe but a change very much so. Use to be one of those "whats the point of moving like an idiot, now im always dancing like a fool. I use to be shy and i still am but im so much better at not caring what others think.

Im also all about love. I use to not care, after my long term relationship ended 2 years ago love had left. For 2 years i never felt love other then parents and friends, good but not the same. X rekindled the passion that i use to have im not afraid to admit that i love life. I love my friends and i love most people. I use to think love was one of those exclusive emotions i had it for my ex but not many others. I realize now that i was wrong, sure the love for a girlfriend is different but love for others is the same in a sense.

Yeah i might get upset after i roll like alot of people do but you give me a week and im back to me. I try to bring that love i feel while rolling into my normal life. No amount of weed, acid, mushrooms and countless other drugs taught me anything. I joke that i finally found something to break my brain, x did something amazing. Ive had people tell me that im far more caring of a person since i rolled. My friends are joke that i went from being normal to becoming a candy kid over night. What can i say i love love and i dont need drugs to feel the love! Wish i didnt miss the raving scene by some 10 years though :(
 
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