cowardescent
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I want to start using cannabis mainly for curbing my anxiety and sensory issues that come with being autistic. I do worry however about the risk of psychosis. I know that most who smoke it and even go overboard and smoke large amounts every day don't develop mental issues. If they do, it's usually temporary.
I have had issues with mania in the past before using any drugs. The first time two times I smoked cannabis as well, I heard voices telling me "Listen, kill yourself" which subsequently disappeared after I turned lights on. The second time, I saw a semi-transparent hallucination of an animal figure darting through my vision which then fizzled out. This was also while I was listening to music.
Some people I talk to (including my psychiatrist) say that it might indicate an underlying mental disorder as it's not at all normal to hear voices or see things on cannabis. Whereas others say it's unusual but not totally abnormal if it's your first time as your brain does 'wacky' things when exposed to exogenous cannabinoids.
I know a lot of people whose lives have been improved from cannabis but fear I might be the few who become totally psychotic and end up having to take antipsychotics for life to keep a psychotic disorder at bay.
I have had issues with mania in the past before using any drugs. The first time two times I smoked cannabis as well, I heard voices telling me "Listen, kill yourself" which subsequently disappeared after I turned lights on. The second time, I saw a semi-transparent hallucination of an animal figure darting through my vision which then fizzled out. This was also while I was listening to music.
Some people I talk to (including my psychiatrist) say that it might indicate an underlying mental disorder as it's not at all normal to hear voices or see things on cannabis. Whereas others say it's unusual but not totally abnormal if it's your first time as your brain does 'wacky' things when exposed to exogenous cannabinoids.
I know a lot of people whose lives have been improved from cannabis but fear I might be the few who become totally psychotic and end up having to take antipsychotics for life to keep a psychotic disorder at bay.