how are you?

[Mellabopper]

*exchange of smiles*
--how are you?
fine, thanks.
do you really actually care how i'm doing? or are you saying that just because that is the normal greeting?
and are you actually fine with me just giving you a bullshit answer?
you know its all bullshit, right?
well, since you asked me, i guess i'm angry.
who am i angry at/with? what am i so pissed at?
people - in general.
the ignorance, the gossip, the hypocrites, the selfish, the superficial, the close-minded.
those who hate others without giving them a chance. those who dont even care about another person as a human being, but rather think of others as people they have to be better than - to be 'above'.
those that take advantage of others. those that hurt just because they can. those that dont sympathize.
those that think they can get away with anything. those that dont care.
i'm angry at those that are homophobic, and those that think AIDS is a gay man's disease. and those that blame the suffering for all of their misfortune.
those that are living in a little bubble and dont even know it.
those that think animals dont have feelings or a soul. i saw something on tv today and it made me sick. puppies buried alive. how could anyone be so cruel.
how am i? i'm tired. of it all. all of this crap, of trying with no results. with always losing the battles and winning those i dont want to win.
broken hearts and broken promises.
buidling the bridges in all the wrong places after tearing down the old ones.
maybe i miss the way it used to be - when things were easy and happy and free.
do you remember all the way back when...
and yourself?
--fine.
7-27-01
Mellabopper
[This message has been edited by Mellabopper (edited 28 July 2001).]

 

[E-girl]

ah, how true... the things we think, but do not say....
and those people you described... sounds like every single person i work with. ugh.
you are a good person, or you would not care about these things. little things like this hurt me too, they are things i often ponder when i look at some people. i dont know how some people can be so ignorant, so heartless, so superficial.
thanks for the reminder that there are still some good souls left out there.
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[Dagny]

You wear your anger well, Mella. Wonderfully written girl.

 

[hiroshi]

hmm.. Mel.. if sumt`ns bothering you, ya always know you can give me a holla.. ive had your ear a few times and you've always got mine

 

[Aja909]

ahh shoot... you coulda been at Stardust with us (you were sleeping) hey umm.. hmm.. dunno what to say about your poetry except that it's well written but I dunno what you are trying to say

 

[nrrthstarr]

i was just thinking about part of that yesterday.. because i walked into various stores at the mall and they all greet you with "hi how are you doing today?" and don't even pretend to bother with caring about your reply and they never answer you when you respond with "ok. how are you?" why ask if you don't care about the answer? i agree that i'm tired of how people are and angry as well.. very well written poetry..
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**norrth starr**
"Don't be afraid, take all you need from me, and we'll be strong together...."

 

[Crow]

 

[RitalinGurrl]

mel - i love the format of your poem, how you get to see the true thoughts of the person on the other side. And i understand and feel your anger as well. Maybe not to your extent, but it's true, the world can be so shallow and prejudice, unfortunatley it always will be because some people won't ever change. You have such passion for so much in life...once again, an awesome, moving poem

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