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How are you in word? V. Darksiders feelings

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motivated.

today i:
-applied for internships in addiction treatment centers
-got all my money sorted out for next semester in grad school
-planned my fitness regimen for next 12 months
-designed and planned for photo show in pt reyes
 
better, now that everything was settled what a huge misunderstanding 8(. I need a mental day off.
 
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RedLeader said:
Lonely

I wish I had some like-minded friends in my area.
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yeah, why'd you have to go and move back? Should've come up here and we could've hung out and shot the proverbial shit....:)

Seriously though, have you ever heard of Meet Up? Not at all a dating or hook up thing; just people getting together in a group joined by common interest. Around here we have film, hiking, book, political discussion and fire-dancing to name a few. A couple of weeks ago I went to a movie by myself (preferred method of film watching) and the whole theatre was talking to each other before the movie started. Someone asked if I was from Meet Up and when I asked if they were the film group they said, "No, hiking, but we like to get together so much we do other stuff together now."

Sporky!<3 This part will fly by but I still know what you mean. Look for a babysitting co-op. Best thing we ever did. That same co-op has been going with constantly changing members for over 40 years here.
 
Emotional, I've cried more in the past couple of days than in the last year or more, not really sure why but in the main they have been tears of overwhelming emotions, emotions of love and what I think must me happiness.

It's proving a challenging time of change but it is for the good :)
 
Clean

Not great, not terrible. Just okay today and that is okay.

Had a straight up conversation with my inept boss, told him he was being disrespectful, talking down to me, not accepting any blame (he is all over the place, cannot remember shit) etc. Lots of other shit. He took it terribly but oh well, I stand up for myself nowadays.

Then he talked terribly about a kid who was "non-responsive", I said: Well I am 99 percent sure he is on the autistic spectrum (I and another teacher have tons of experience with the spectrum) and we got him talking. Maybe you should adjust how you talk to students (he talks to them like they are little adults its weird) and was pissed.

Shit, now I gotta go do some meditation and stepwork. I feel better after writing that down lol.
 
herbavore said:
yeah, why'd you have to go and move back? Should've come up here and we could've hung out and shot the proverbial shit....:)
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It's a long story that I don't want to put in public. I will try and message you tomorrow.

Anyway...restless. Don't feel like going home tonight for some reason. But everything's pretty much closed and the last bus to catch is coming soon. So I'm going to go home and read the new book I bought until I fall asleep. Wish I lived in a bigger city, as sometimes I just fantasize that I could wander aimlessly between cafes, diners and shops all night. There's a romantic quality to such nights that I really miss.
 
Lonely :(

... my (I guess you can call bf) went to rehab a whole province away, and I'm just feelin' sad.
I'm happy he's getting clean but it's gonna be really hard to see him once he returns...
And I just miss him a lot, I wish rehabs at least let you have your phone. lol .__.
It's gonna be a weird two months with no contact, but I guess it's only two months....

~Verri
 
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Lady Bun-Bun said:
Worthless
Impossible to achieve anything positive on my own for long these days. I used to be better than this... or so I thought anyway.
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You know this isn't true. While it may not seem like it, all the short bursts of positive achievement have built up towards a long standing goal. You have been doing this on your own, it just may not seem worth it yet. <3
 
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