Welcome How Are You in One Word vs wait! Just one?!

Status
Not open for further replies.
It's dark and gray outside today! It's a struggle to make something of the day, but I will. This weather sucks balls.

I've been drinking whiskey since yesterday. It made me feel good last night, but today it's dragging me down it seems. Making me sluggish. I had some coffee to balance it out. I will go outside to get air, but it's sooo dreary! God help me.
 
Last edited:
^ Yeah, my mentality has been changing a lot. Things become different when you start searching your heart and you begin to really know what you want, don't want and what you need to stop giving your attention to in life.

A lot of changes are coming because many things that used to appeal to me, just don't anymore. It should make room for more good things when I stop wasting my time.
 
Hopeless

Just having one of those days when I feel absolutely trapped by all of the debt I have. And struggling to feel good about getting clean and healthy again if the potential for a better life is not really there. I tried so hard the second half of this year to find a job that uses my education and/or pays decently beyond minimum wage and I found nothing. I guess a criminal record and a poor credit score always trump nice dress clothes, manners and ambition. It's one big catch-22, really. And I know that a lot of people don't really try to find work when they say they will, and I have done that in the past, but I seriously tried this year and still got nowhere beyond a couple interviews. I have plenty of ideas for starting my own business, but I will never get a loan. My family's only response is "should have thought about this all before doing drugs." And since my wages started being garnished at 20% last month, I am really anxious about just getting my minimum bills paid. There's nothing left over for personal development. And I just feel very alone in this all and don't see a path out. It's a terrible type of prison. I really would like a fair shot at a new life and not be reminded every single day by finances that I am still absolutely tied to my past.

So ya, just feeling depressed, alone and unsupported.
 
Last edited:
Status
Not open for further replies.
Top