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How Are You in One Word Vs Happiness; Only Real When Shared =D

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Reveling in and loving being alone. My guys are in Patagonia! It's a rarity to have the house to myself and I have to say, it is grand!
 
^Enjoy it! I'm an only child so I spent a lot of time alone growing up. Then I just wanted someone around to play with, but these days I CRAVE my alone time and enjoy every last minute of it when I have it. :)

I'm thinking about my plans for the day. I need to go to the store to gather up some supplies and then I think I'm going to try to make sushi for the first time ever. I might fail miserably, but I think it'll still be fun to try. :)
 
Patagonia huh? Not that your guys would ever do anything so stupid I'm sure but you've read the llamas thread in Best of Bluelight haven't you? Just in case, you know. Might come in handy if anyone ever goes down the llama route, that's all.

I'm chilled. Ex GF came over middle of Friday night cos I was real in need of a cuddle bless her. Spent a really good day yesterday visiting and walking my mam's dog and the one my ex was dogsitting for came from the same litter a friend of hers had that I picked the runt from for mam. Was fun, and nice to chill out later. She's still my best friend and need to be careful not to blur things too much, think we're on pretty solid ground there. Now nice to have the house back to myself for the evening. Boss told me last week to call him over the weekend to discuss things. Tried to call, texted him, he's not replied. Will message him again before too much later, need to know if he wants me in work tomorrow. Done my bit, pretty relaxed about it either way, will sort it.
 
^Can you do something to distract yourself, hun? I read that you've been exercising lately. Maybe a workout will help fulfill that void instead of drugs.
 
Yeah you're right, maybe I'll go for a run or something. When you're in this state of mind it's just so hard to think of anything to do that sounds more enjoyable than drugs, as I'm sure everyone here knows...but you're right, forcing myself to work out might help a lot, thanks.
 
Pagey said:
I'm just going to end up giving in as usual :(
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Trouble is you're just keeping the 'as usual' thing going and it will stay your as usual thing until you do something different, you're in a vicious cycle that makes the difference between how good you can feel on opiates and how shit you feel when you're not more apparent but they're what's causing a lot of the feeling shit as much as anything else making things worse cos you're constantly recovering from them. You've created an imbalance only opiates can fix until you've given your brain long enough to recover and balance back out and you will feel pretty damn shit while you do. It sucks but it's true. Time will fix that. Tough it out Pagey, not beat yet and you don't have to give in to cravings and act on them, you're still the boss of this shit. <3
 
Positive.

Drove my lady to the station super early this morning.
I've already managed to tackle some household chores and have planned out my day, which is jam packed with productivity :)
 
baffled, just lost job for no reason,
semi-depresssed
happy i have a family who loves and helps me
lonely my girl is in prison for 1-5
need to get out more and meet people
 
Bill said:
^ Work on sunday, hersey!
Hope you have a good day though
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Thanks Bill, you're a love. <3

Too bad about the job since Laika has been on a band t-shirt kick and has bought me I think (14 and counting) band tees. The problem is... I can never wear them since I work every day. Bummar! I wore my Of Mont. Daughter of Cloud shirt (in blue) with blue leggings to go to taco bell though..we just got home %). Do you approve?

I'm feeling oddly positive today. I hope it keeps up.

spork said:
I'm thinking about my plans for the day. I need to go to the store to gather up some supplies and then I think I'm going to try to make sushi for the first time ever. I might fail miserably, but I think it'll still be fun to try. :)
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Sporkgonzola I tried making sushi once. The key is to eat it within the first hour of making it. Avacado+air+vinegar-y rice=rotten within 2 hours. Also don't try to make a rice only roll. It might seem like it would taste amazing but trust me... it's not.
 
Artificial Emotion said:
I keep thinking that I'm gonna fuck someone up. If it wasn't so illegal I might even bash their fucking brains out.
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Clearly that's just a gesture and you don't actually mean it - just like what you said about my legitimate suicide attempt.

My word: amused
 
stardust.hero said:
Sporkgonzola I tried making sushi once. The key is to eat it within the first hour of making it. Avacado+air+vinegar-y rice=rotten within 2 hours. Also don't try to make a rice only roll. It might seem like it would taste amazing but trust me... it's not.
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Be prepared to be amazed! Are you sitting down? Ready for this??
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The grocery store had no ripe avocados so I just used cucumber and imitation crab meat. I swear it tasted better than it looks lol.
 
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