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How Are You In One Word ver. Smile Because It Happened

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I just realized it's my cat's birthday today cause I noticed that GrumpyCat's birthday is tomorrow. I feel like a horrible kitty mom for almost forgetting. :\ At least I have another hour and a half to spoil her rotten.
 
^ My cat was so miserable on her birthday LOL. It was like she knew and didn't want to age.
 
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I was trying to relax/meditate to some trippy music when I was slammed with one of those 'I am a horrible person for what I have done' moments, only this one was far more intense and paralyzing than average. And then I get this intense feeling of needing to make certain things right with certain people ASAP, but then I remember that I am a broke junkie without a lot of resources. Maybe the better option is to just get as far away from anyone and everyone who has cared about me (and been done wrong by me) so that I can't hurt them anymore. But how far could a broke junkie even run?

I wish certain people would stop incessantly reminding me of my wrongdoings. Believe me, I beat myself enough. Or when I say that I am trying to forgive myself, I hear "so it's still all about you, huh..."

I guess it's a variation of the fight/flight thing. Fight to regain people's love or run away because I love them? :( Sleep is gonna be hard.
 
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Okay, first I want to apologize for my crazy cat lady posts and I know this is probably really lame buttttt Azrael got her first FB fan today that isn't a friend of mine or even a friend of a friend. A random person liked her page. My baby kitty is on her way to Internet fame. I'm so excited for her! =D <3
 
^ i believe Caleb once set up a FB account for Herbie. If i could I would have him friend, Azrael.:)

my word: confused. by just about everything.8)
 
^Been thinking of you quite a bit lately. If you want to talk about it, you know how to get in contact with me. <3
 
spork said:
Okay, first I want to apologize for my crazy cat lady posts and I know this is probably really lame buttttt Azrael got her first FB fan today that isn't a friend of mine or even a friend of a friend. A random person liked her page. My baby kitty is on her way to Internet fame. I'm so excited for her! =D <3
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Aw!! <3 <3

I'm totally a crazy cat lady too, 100% LOL.

I'm excited/nervous- I hate being a perfectionist sometimes & well...yeah never mind.
 
spork said:
Okay, first I want to apologize for my crazy cat lady posts
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First, never apologize! =D Second, this would be me if bunnies weren't illegal here:

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My word is:

{Relaxed}
 
^I had no idea that bunnies were illegal there. Learning new things every day. Adorable pic BTW. :)
 
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