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How Are You In One Word ver. Smile Because It Happened

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Mr.Scagnattie said:
Nervous.

I feel like the floor is finally starting to fall out from under me...

The jig is up.
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Oh ya, that would have been my post to this thread everyday from like Jan-March. Tap out before it gets too hairy. 90% of my current mess is due to letting it run for just that last additional month. Get some bupe and 'comedown with the flu.' BL's a better place with your daily posts, but we both know how priorities change as you get deeper and deeper. We don't wanna lose you, man. Shit is hard, trust me I am just barely out of the woods and still see the shadows all around me. But it's just a chemical, it doesn't define you.


HURTING

I dunno, woke up with some aches and pains, didn't sleep well, have a pimple forming that freaking hurts, feeling apathetic. I have to travel across town today for some practical stuff that will bore me to tears. Gonna have a coffee and sit outside. Hopefully things turn for the better.
 
Okay.

Spent the last 2 days being more social (or at least making an effort to), and that has considerably lifted my spirits. I'm excited to go to Europe this May... I truly think it will be the start of "healthier" lifestyle not having access to my vices while I'm overseas. I spent some time shopping last night and bought way more than I intended to (as females usually do), but managed to pick out a whole new summer wardrobe that will be perfect for this 30-day trip. I also figure with all of the time I've stayed in instead of eating/drinking out, I've saved double what I spent on shopping. I think I deserved a little spoiling and I'm trying not to guilt myself about the splurge.
 
RedLeader said:
Oh ya, that would have been my post to this thread everyday from like Jan-March. Tap out before it gets too hairy. 90% of my current mess is due to letting it run for just that last additional month. Get some bupe and 'comedown with the flu.' BL's a better place with your daily posts, but we both know how priorities change as you get deeper and deeper. We don't wanna lose you, man. Shit is hard, trust me I am just barely out of the woods and still see the shadows all around me. But it's just a chemical, it doesn't define you.
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Thanks man I appreciate that. It's a real bitch this life we've chosen.

Hope you're doing well, man.
 
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