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Abnormally awake



If this process continues I will no longer require sleep as I ascend to the level of demi-god.


Suffering delusions of grandeur (and doing it better than anyone in the history of ever). You're witnessing the start of something beautiful.
 
filthy..

my girlfriend used to be a big whore.. cannot get over it. I cry at the thoughts... panic at the thoughts... how do I deal?...
 
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dropsonde said:
filthy..

my girlfriend used to be a big whore.. cannot get over it. I cry at the thoughts... panic at the thoughts... how do I deal?...
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If she has changed her ways, you can't dwell on her past. Treasure the lovely person that she is TODAY <3
 
dropsonde said:
filthy..

my girlfriend used to be a big whore.. cannot get over it. I cry at the thoughts... panic at the thoughts... how do I deal?...
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If she no longer does it then let her past be her past and love/like her for who she is now. My gf has a similar past and I know in my own way how you feel. The thoughts swimming in your head will do you no good. If she's loyal to you and not selling her body or whatnot, then let her past be her past. Also as long as you both get tested for STIs and are both clean and you are both being sexually careful. Just enjoy your love for each other.
I know from time to time I get paranoid over my gals past and I have to stop myself and realize its the past and my paranoia is just stupidity.

Best of luck to you guys!! :) <3
 
RAGING big time and trying to keep my anger under control, and its hard to do. All i want to do it knock everyone out!! Thing is, no one has pissed me off. I'm just....this way on my own. Okay not completely true. I DID get into a fight BUT I wasn't mad during the fight at all. An hour later I was and its nothing to do with the fight. I fucking hate being this way and I can't get meds to help until NEXT week. Meditation isn't helping much, nothing much is helping. One thing that is - is my gf holding me/cuddling me. I can't do that everywhere all the time though.
ARGH!
I know I need to breathe and take it easy but I am just so wound up and ARGH!!!
Hopefully tomorrow is better, I think more court is tomorrow..... :/
 
was good until my dad flipped a shit on me for "being rude". I hate having old parents. The only advantages come with their sense disadvantages. They can't hear, see or smell well, so it really does benefit. They piss me off though.
 
sad I was just at the E.R. choked, abdominal thrust, broke rib, no biggie....but, I seen the all the familiar and depressing "Crisis intervention nurse" and two police officers with evidence bags leave the room next to time...FUCKING$%$$^#^%# that shit makes me so sad.
 
glitter_kiss said:
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I just found out im going to go to disneyland on friday for free
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My grandpa used to work at Disneyland.
I got to go probably over 100times as a child.
Now that I'm all grown up, I hate rollercoasters, lines, crowds, families, financial rape, loud noises and slow moving people.

So I hate that place now :|
 
saudade vague and constant desire for something that never was and probably never will be

I miss my friends, especially one of them.
tired of these walls im putting up.
 
faketrees: I love the word saudade. Haven't had the chance to use it in conversation yet. If I ever need a new screenname, it'll be that.

In fact, dibs.

:)

ATM: Shitty. Literally. Either I've caught a bug, have hit a new level of internalized stress, or ate a ton of dairy at the going away Indian buffet lunch at work. Probably the latter two, but I can't rule out the first either.
 
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