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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents
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Captain.Heroin
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Hungry.
theartofwar
Bluelighter
disgusted
k.kat
Bluelighter
Depressed
SideOrderOfOpiates
Bluelighter
It isn't my place in this wild world of ours to stumble across 'validation' in something that I see as absolutely fucking impossible for me to validate. All morally correct religions strive for the same fucking goal. As long as I am being as morally correct as I can be, uncertainity in regards to 'religion' is perfectly alright. Anyone who thinks otherwise can go kick boulders.
panic in paradise
Bluelighter
^^they really do:-D & mostly by reflecting our own exhibited content.
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refraining from LMAO,,, SOoO... spoken w/-pneumacy
i think you could 1/2 appreciate this, maybe.
" Novit enim Dominus qui sunt eius "
some one posted it sent me swirling!!!
this is why i havent gotten any tattoo's, or, id be pawning shit to have this etched on me some how.!
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Legerity, im trying to wade out of some odd water with my mom... she can stake me to the ground in a snap, because i give her this much thought. which i have busted heads to prove to others:-/ but it can be good to face and sort some emotions in their essence, before it only becomes more difficult to express them to her - and Vice versa.
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refraining from LMAO,,, SOoO... spoken w/-pneumacy
i think you could 1/2 appreciate this, maybe.
" Novit enim Dominus qui sunt eius "
some one posted it sent me swirling!!!
this is why i havent gotten any tattoo's, or, id be pawning shit to have this etched on me some how.!
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Legerity, im trying to wade out of some odd water with my mom... she can stake me to the ground in a snap, because i give her this much thought. which i have busted heads to prove to others:-/ but it can be good to face and sort some emotions in their essence, before it only becomes more difficult to express them to her - and Vice versa.
ocean
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Leg, I hope you guys work things out soon
Dave, meeeee toooooo.
And I just ate more
I've eaten more sugar today than I have in months! (like all the sugar together
)
My mom says "It's Easter" so that'll be my excuse hahaha
Dave, meeeee toooooo.
And I just ate more
I've eaten more sugar today than I have in months! (like all the sugar together
)My mom says "It's Easter" so that'll be my excuse hahaha
LoveHateLove
Bluelighter
Broken.
That's ok though. I've gotta rebuild anyway.
That's ok though. I've gotta rebuild anyway.
BanginMyLifeAway
Bluelighter
sedated
Bojangles69
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really extremely super tired (1 word couldn't possibly justify the feeling)
no sleep for 2 nights, took 4 soma last night and didn't pass out for a minute. now dealing with a soma hangover and absolutely no sleep for 48 hours. I can not exagerate how fucked up my head feels right now. I almost have no idea where i am or what I was suppose to do today.
no sleep for 2 nights, took 4 soma last night and didn't pass out for a minute. now dealing with a soma hangover and absolutely no sleep for 48 hours. I can not exagerate how fucked up my head feels right now. I almost have no idea where i am or what I was suppose to do today.
panic in paradise
Bluelighter
¿?life¿?
... the meaning of my life - is to questioning life :::
as questioning life - is to acknowledging being ...
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i dont know what else to do, but after so long of that; im sure there will be plenty of options.
... the meaning of my life - is to questioning life :::
as questioning life - is to acknowledging being ...
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i dont know what else to do, but after so long of that; im sure there will be plenty of options.
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Tired but atleast calming down after a shitty and frustrating morning.
bwanajzj
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self-contraindicated
Positive-yet-saddened.
Started working out again a week ago, and got accepted into a college to do a year-long Access Course, which will Enable me to apply for a few top 10 Universities next year, to study Software Engineering.
On the other hand, my ex-girl and I started talking again, but only as 'friends', I refuse to let anything happen besides that. She told me that she's relapsed massively on H, and I just feel like I want to help her, but I can't. I cannot be drawn into her problems, when I have my own mental and physical health to consider.
Started working out again a week ago, and got accepted into a college to do a year-long Access Course, which will Enable me to apply for a few top 10 Universities next year, to study Software Engineering.
On the other hand, my ex-girl and I started talking again, but only as 'friends', I refuse to let anything happen besides that. She told me that she's relapsed massively on H, and I just feel like I want to help her, but I can't. I cannot be drawn into her problems, when I have my own mental and physical health to consider.
^ You've got the right idea-- take care of you first, so that you can take care of others (if for no other reason). Congrats to getting into your program!
ATM: Good. 37k on my new ride, and my legs are just singing. Should probably stretch more, but I just couldn't be arsed.
ATM: Good. 37k on my new ride, and my legs are just singing. Should probably stretch more, but I just couldn't be arsed.
Legerity
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Waking. Only slept a couple of hours yesterday afternoon so tonight i slept for about 13 and woke up at 6PM. An efficient way to pass the day!
Thanks Asclep/Ocean. No resolution, avoidance for now!
PIP: Thanks I agree that it's time to express some things that have been unexpressed. That's what happened yesterday and will have to continue if we're going to maintain a healthy relationship. Sometimes it is necessary to call ppl out on their behavior whether it is uncomfortable or not to do so.
Thanks Asclep/Ocean. No resolution, avoidance for now!
PIP: Thanks I agree that it's time to express some things that have been unexpressed. That's what happened yesterday and will have to continue if we're going to maintain a healthy relationship. Sometimes it is necessary to call ppl out on their behavior whether it is uncomfortable or not to do so.
panic in paradise
Bluelighter
^true
ive been told to listen lately, ehh.
and LISTEN with all i can listen with.
my mom and i have been at odd ends lately, as i mentioned.
at dinner with her and my dad, she wasnt really talking, but staring.
my dad and i ordered a dish called seven stars around the moon, there was a turnip, beet(?) w/e, spiral cut and shaped into a rose.
she asked what it was, and i described as i did above.
i asked if she wanted it, she why? i said idk, because, she said yes.
i put it on her plate. she pushed it around, asked if she can or should eat it? i said if she wanted to, sure.!
she took a little bite, a tiny nibble, set it back down, looked off and chewed it- then looked at me in the eyes and we - lol'd.
the air might be clear, but its nothing i can ask.
ive been told to listen lately, ehh.
and LISTEN with all i can listen with.
my mom and i have been at odd ends lately, as i mentioned.
at dinner with her and my dad, she wasnt really talking, but staring.
my dad and i ordered a dish called seven stars around the moon, there was a turnip, beet(?) w/e, spiral cut and shaped into a rose.
she asked what it was, and i described as i did above.
i asked if she wanted it, she why? i said idk, because, she said yes.
i put it on her plate. she pushed it around, asked if she can or should eat it? i said if she wanted to, sure.!
she took a little bite, a tiny nibble, set it back down, looked off and chewed it- then looked at me in the eyes and we - lol'd.
the air might be clear, but its nothing i can ask.
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