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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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Asclepius said:
Enough about that shit...how'd work related stuff go for ya???
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meh. The one dude and I go way back so that was resolved just by shooting the shit openly.

The other... well, something is going to happen at some point. He's the definition of a 'bully'. Big dude who thinks obesity and height equal 'strong and capable'. Its sad because I see myself in him. He seems like all his actions and words are from his own fear. I recognize it because I have the same problem (I'm making huge strides in this area, though)

Here's the funny part... he claims to:

* have been an enforcer in the mafia
* broken kneecaps
* killed his own mother through carbon monoxide
* burned two houses down
* spent 6 months in an Arizona prison and upon release he got into a fight with three other guys. He says he knocked them all out and a boxing promoter was nearby and saw this. [wait... it gets better]. The boxing promoter hired him to be a sparring partner with some big shot boxer. This dude says he got mad at the boxer and knocked him out and therefore got fired.
* he also says he can't go to jail/prison because he has 'papers' that say his mental issues cause him to not be responsible for his actions

sheesh!!!! This fucking guy bis delusional!!!!!

Anyway, I'm gonna say some shit to him and see if he flexes. It will be in front of the video cameras so if he comes at me I'm good. I'm not bragging but just saying, I would destroy him. I say this because he is so big that he is actually unable to walk much without resting and he is incapable of bending down to use a dust pan and hand broom.

Thats what I don't get. If you are physically challenged, how can you possibly think the tough guy/bully mentality is going to work?

Ugh! Its just unbelievable.
 
OverDone said:
meh. The one dude and I go way back so that was resolved just by shooting the shit openly.

The other... well, something is going to happen at some point. He's the definition of a 'bully'. Big dude who thinks obesity and height equal 'strong and capable'. Its sad because I see myself in him. He seems like all his actions and words are from his own fear. I recognize it because I have the same problem (I'm making huge strides in this area, though)

Here's the funny part... he claims to:

* have been an enforcer in the mafia
* broken kneecaps
* killed his own mother through carbon monoxide
* burned two houses down
* spent 6 months in an Arizona prison and upon release he got into a fight with three other guys. He says he knocked them all out and a boxing promoter was nearby and saw this. [wait... it gets better]. The boxing promoter hired him to be a sparring partner with some big shot boxer. This dude says he got mad at the boxer and knocked him out and therefore got fired.
* he also says he can't go to jail/prison because he has 'papers' that say his mental issues cause him to not be responsible for his actions

sheesh!!!! This fucking guy bis delusional!!!!!

Anyway, I'm gonna say some shit to him and see if he flexes. It will be in front of the video cameras so if he comes at me I'm good. I'm not bragging but just saying, I would destroy him. I say this because he is so big that he is actually unable to walk much without resting and he is incapable of bending down to use a dust pan and hand broom.

Thats what I don't get. If you are physically challenged, how can you possibly think the tough guy/bully mentality is going to work?

Ugh! Its just unbelievable.
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Glad you and your mate sorted it out.

I know, tis a bit Sad, actually it's pathetic! Have to feel sorry for the guy clingin on to his Ego for dear life.

I wont be mean here, not the time or the place.

I suggest you both have a pizza-off(much like a dance off)...you think that would cool things down a bit? Obviously an pizza eating contest would be biased...he would probably have been coached by Fat Tony and his band on Cannoli eating Comrades and you wouldn't stand a chance...such a pity. :/

Glad the anxiety over it has abated for you though OD. :)
'Small potatoes' in the grand scheme of things, eh?!

*Seriously, its so cool that you can see yourself in that guy(has happened to me too in debacles, its karma, a sign you doin well in yourself)....So let him be a puffer fish, talk him down, keep your own unsatable ego out of the matter and deal with it rationally(deal with your own feeling after/outside of the drama;dont buy in to it, dont be 'easy'. Always, use your head! Intelligence hasnt come through years of evolution to be disregarded, honour yourself, use your mind and intuition...keep the Bod and testosterone for the ladies! ;) (seriously though, keep your physical stuff for your own sexual needs, whatever they are, energy is too expendable, thats why there is no reward for fighting like the cro-magnon in todays society(apart from war))Dont deny yourself the chance to move forward and evolve your wiles man, you've come through so much...believe in what you have right now. Sorry if this sounds like an empty motavational speech but it isnt meant that way. Mean it in earnest FWIW<3
 
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Quite sad and not well able to sleep.

I am not going to get into it too much, but how can I ever truly put the past away and get on with my life so that I am able to sleep?

Stupid early morning awakening is going to drive me beyond the point of insanity. I need a relaxing day at the spa, stat.

The **** always seems to happen around my birthday. I have not been able to truly enjoy my birthday (8 days from now) in years. My family and friends are doing their best to make this one special, but with me being so overwrought I just don't know how I will manage.

:(
 
Lack of sleep is hell.
Can you take time off Mari, you sound seriously stressed out hun? :(<3

Hungry
 
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Asclepius said:
Lack of sleep is hell.
Can you take time off Mari, you sound seriously stressed out hun? :(<3
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Not for another 12 days. I'm on a deadline. It's the end of my working season, and will be a push right until the end! I'm working mostly from home with another consultant who's super cool. We had a delicious Lebanese pizza for lunch from the local food market. Perhaps I just needed to eat. No ED here but I often forget to eat when I feel uneasy. I have to make a commitment to eat more regularly and in a balanced manner.

I should be able to take most of the summer off save for volunteering. I'll spend some time in nature, time with family that doesn't involve working for them, and travel within my budget with friends.

My word: planning. It will get better. I haven't taken out the stress anywhere but here. I burned some strawberry incense and did some meditation. I feel much better now. <3
 
OverDone said:
meh. The one dude and I go way back so that was resolved just by shooting the shit openly.

The other... well, something is going to happen at some point. He's the definition of a 'bully'. Big dude who thinks obesity and height equal 'strong and capable'. Its sad because I see myself in him. He seems like all his actions and words are from his own fear. I recognize it because I have the same problem (I'm making huge strides in this area, though)

Here's the funny part... he claims to:

* have been an enforcer in the mafia
* broken kneecaps
* killed his own mother through carbon monoxide
* burned two houses down
* spent 6 months in an Arizona prison and upon release he got into a fight with three other guys. He says he knocked them all out and a boxing promoter was nearby and saw this. [wait... it gets better]. The boxing promoter hired him to be a sparring partner with some big shot boxer. This dude says he got mad at the boxer and knocked him out and therefore got fired.
* he also says he can't go to jail/prison because he has 'papers' that say his mental issues cause him to not be responsible for his actions

sheesh!!!! This fucking guy bis delusional!!!!!

Anyway, I'm gonna say some shit to him and see if he flexes. It will be in front of the video cameras so if he comes at me I'm good. I'm not bragging but just saying, I would destroy him. I say this because he is so big that he is actually unable to walk much without resting and he is incapable of bending down to use a dust pan and hand broom.

Thats what I don't get. If you are physically challenged, how can you possibly think the tough guy/bully mentality is going to work?

Ugh! Its just unbelievable.
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What a load of shit. If he had been in the mob he wouldnt tell anyone about it and in anycase if he had been a enforcer he would still be in it so yeah full of shit. Just a petty bully who couldnt fight his way out of a wet paper bag and is saying that shit cause he is stupid enough to think it will scare people. Size means nothing in a fight and fat out of shape fucks are not hard to beat at all. Just don't let him get his hands on ya thats all.

As for me im well bored and in pain :|
 
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This week in Neko's year from hell: Neko goes to the Doctor tomorrow to find out if she is infact diabetic. Oh yeah, and she turns 27.......I hate birthdays
 
Currently feeling: Downcast, troubled.
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This evening will mark 9 days without opiates; the relentless depression I experience often leads me to relapse as soon as my body has decreased in pain. I've done well so far, and at least the depression has sparked an inclination to write. Certainly do hope these feelings pass, though. I'm very well aware of PAWS, but I'm also very well aware that I haven't the vaguest as to how to live a 'normal' fucking life.
 
bamboozled

with my text-message system on phone - in order to access or use my TM's - i have to view the most recent one if one has been sent - the most recent one is from motherfucking QuizTime(88922); if i open this it charges $20 - every-time...!


(i think i can text myself from my comp though)
 
pip , compose a text msg to an email address , reply to it and you wil lget around that. Or go to your settings and delete all msgs - txt back the ppl and ask whats up.
 
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