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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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Bummed. Got pulled over by an unmarked cop car while I was doing 140kph on the motorway.

At least he didn't search my car... I would have been in a LOT more trouble if he did! :\
 
lkal26 said:
Relieved...
Today my biggest problem was/is my neighbors millions of loud, yappy dogs....
I guess a close second to relieved would be
Lucky...
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Me too, very luck one am I...thank heavens for small mercy's and appreciation
Try barkin back at the dogs, perhaps? They might shut up to the 'Alpha Dog'/Pack leader...? ;)




theartofwar said:
trying to keep myself together. Short fused, not myself, detatched and will remain this way until I finally get it together. Pls send vibes my way, I apologize if I have come over negatively to anyone. Really am in a bad place. Ty.
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Hope ya get better, really do man. Apologies for any hurt done. <3

ATM: Jammy
 
Dave - cutting myself , i was over the sink and worked my way up my left forearm and they walked in (forgot to lock the bathroom door) - they couldn't elieve whatthey were seeing. I wish i hadn't been so stupid and left the door open, now everything has changed. don't know what to even do.

me: sp depressed. i go out - i smile - and I want to kill myself all the time. Or at least cut myself some. I snuck off at the bar tonight to cut. I am so fucking miserable it's pathetic. I know "I need help" - I don't think I will make it in inpatient I know for afact i will kill myself there.
 
theartofwar said:
Dave - cutting myself , i was over the sink and worked my way up my left forearm and they walked in (forgot to lock the bathroom door) - they couldn't elieve whatthey were seeing. I wish i hadn't been so stupid and left the door open, now everything has changed. don't know what to even do.

me: sp depressed. i go out - i smile - and I want to kill myself all the time. Or at least cut myself some. I snuck off at the bar tonight to cut. I am so fucking miserable it's pathetic. I know "I need help" - I don't think I will make it in inpatient I know for afact i will kill myself there.
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There are ways to change how you feel, and I wish you the best of luck man.

I have something to tell you, check your inbox, friend. :)
 
tired

been doing a full house clean up/spring cleaning deal here in the halfway house. having to clean everything!

atleast it will smell nice when i'm done..
 
taow-- Are you going to an inpatient program? Don't be so quick to write it, or yourself, off. You're having difficulties right now, and if you're cutting yourself that much then you probably do need help, but you deserve to get that help, and to get better.

I'm just heading out the door, but I'll send you a proper reply via PM tonight. Be well, and try to go easy on yourself-- physically and emotionally. :)
 
Quite sore and very tired

Between work and going for a run afterwards, I feel like I got my ass kicked last night.


Craving a bit too, which I haven't really had to put up with much lately.
 
Traumatised

However relieved too. If I hadn't sat down and had a cigarette with my mother in the kitchen tonight I probably wouldn't be going back to the psychiatrists on Monday. Well, to the doctor first for a referral, then the psychiatrists whenever they can fit me in.

EDIT: That came out wrong. If I hadn't opened up to my mother when she asked me if I was ok tonight instead of nodding and saying "yeah, fine" then I probably would have kept putting off making the appointment.

This will be my 3rd stint with the psychiatrist now...lets hope I find that magic pill as it seems that is all that will save me now. That or I may as well just become a full time junky instead of this part time shite as I feel like a fucking junky anyway.
 
Fuckin Needy
Tired
Alone
Misunderstood

Disclosed too much info to someone tonight, feel out of control :(
 
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