How Are You In One Word v. I got a feelin'

[Stoned Immaculate]

stressed

Hate feeling like I take 2 steps forward to be thrown back 10. I'm doing all of this on my own with little to no support and constantly being bitched at on the way. The love of my life tells me that I'm the standard he judges all new girls against, but refuses to allow himself and I to be together. I passed up surgery and possibly getting rid of all this horrendous back pain to attend a school that now won't even get back to me about finalizing my registration date. Why do the things I want most in life insist on fighting me so badly.

 

[Pagey]

^Good luck, I hope things get better for you

Miserable. Just got into a gigantic fight with my dad who ended up resorting to his physically abusive tendencies and tried to make me feel as bad about myself as he could. And as if that wasn't enough, he then spent the next fifteen minutes insulting my mom.
Can't wait to get out of here.

 

[theartofwar]

swamped my cousin is here from England , it's great to see him but I'm holding on with everything I to not pick up. My confidence around my family is not gret so I always want to cop - i'm trying to be open about everything without making him feel bad.

 

[stardust.hero]

TAoW stay strong buddy, I know exactly how that feels.

 

[RedLeader]

tired

I have no idea how I made it through work without falling asleep. I felt like I had the brainpower of a two year old fox. Oh well, it's nap time now. I will nap, be up all night, be tired tomorrow, cycle repeat. C'est la vie.

 

[snowboarder7791]

LOL'ing .... First women who has hit on me in years is 18. (i ll be 35 in a couple of weeks) nice girl but a lil young for me......

 

[stardust.hero]

tired

I felt like I had the brainpower of a two year old fox.

I've never heard that one before...

Showboarder, it was atleast a nice confidence boost in the least, eh? Glad you are LOLing

I'm getting tired but I still have an hour left drying clothes.

 

[SHHMCJOOAPOYS]

tired

from a grueling workout

 

[n3ophy7e]

stressed

Hate feeling like I take 2 steps forward to be thrown back 10. I'm doing all of this on my own with little to no support and constantly being bitched at on the way. The love of my life tells me that I'm the standard he judges all new girls against, but refuses to allow himself and I to be together. I passed up surgery and possibly getting rid of all this horrendous back pain to attend a school that now won't even get back to me about finalizing my registration date. Why do the things I want most in life insist on fighting me so badly.

I know that feeling of defeat hun. If you wanna talk about it please feel free to PM me on here or fb

Miserable. Just got into a gigantic fight with my dad who ended up resorting to his physically abusive tendencies and tried to make me feel as bad about myself as he could. And as if that wasn't enough, he then spent the next fifteen minutes insulting my mom.
Can't wait to get out of here.

Pagey that is so awful hun, I'm so sorry. I hope you're doing okay/ Hang in there lovely

i i feel so guilty for kicking the shit out of my dog for it in a fit of rage

That is disgusting, and I hope you never do that again.

n3o

n3o--hopefully at some small stuff? (())

Sorry ladies I didn't even see these posts before. I am so detached lately.
I love you both

 

[Hazey420]

Wow that is scary as hell Hazey420! Im so sorry that happened to your mother I've heard of ulcers bursting and bleeding,and I'm trying to just keep calm and distract myself so if this whole thing is due to stress then I won't make it any worse. Luckily I only lost maybe a couple of tablespoons of blood each time (which was really scary and seemed like a lot) ,and the last incident was on friday.I haven't had any black stools for about a week either.

After hearing your story if they don't find anything with the colonoscopy,and it keeps happening,I will definitely follow up with my doctor asap.Thanks for sharing

Your welcome, thank you for listening!

 

[spork]

Tired. Really wishing I didn't have class today but oh well..I'll get through it.

 

[Ds]

me 2 spork, im exhausted, after battling a cold i have 2 be at work in 10mins and work an 8hr shift, fucking sucks because i have zero energy to do so.

 

[escapingwonderland]

sweaty

fixing my koi pond in this heat.

 

[panic in paradise]

....

so ima talk a walk and quietly spread the love.

it hard to believe.

on my walk i went and saw my friend who has been doing especially bad lately, worst ive seen him and the only thing that has been different is a medication he started recently, Humira, one of the two drugs i was referring to.

 

[hthr007]

Grieving.

I can't believe it's been over 3 years since I lost my grandma, my best friend.

She wasn't sick; she had a sudden brain aneurism. On a Friday she went into the hospital (dialed 911 herself), and passed on a Memorial day in '09... 2 weeks before my high school graduation, 1 week before my senior prom, and 4 weeks before I got my first car and license.

I was with her all 3 days. As she took her last breath I was holding her hand. She was unconscious on arriva in the ICU, I talked to her but she couldn't talk back, but she'd squeeze my hand Everytime I told her something.

Every Saturday night we'd order Chinese food together...I miss her so much.

 

[spork]

^ So sorry, dear. Losing someone you love is something that is incredibly difficult to go through. (((((huge hugs)))))

 

[Stoned Immaculate]

I'm hanging in there and am OK.

 

[n3ophy7e]

^^ *hugs*


hthr007 I am so sorry for your loss You are so lucky to have spent such great times with such a wonderful person. That is a beautiful thing


I am very frustrated that I still haven't gotten hold of the reins again since my relapse. It's ongoing. I have to admit I'm not trying hard enough.....or, at all.

 

[spork]

Anxious

 

[stardust.hero]

^ Me too