Neo- stay strong and know that u r worth the effort to stay sober. What i have learned from getting sober myself is that nobody is theirself using drugs. U and herb both made a big impact in my recovery, and if u guys had that impact on me without knowing me, if u did that with no motives other than helping somone through a hard time u r most definitely worth the effort to fight to be the sober yourself, but i digress if u did use since u posted or decide u must then dont beat yourself up over it.
Taow- u probly shouldnt buy any H. Hang in thre buddy, u r worth it too.
Today the word is EXCITED i got a good night sleep with just doxylamine last night. I have been using it to sleep, but last night was the first night i slept more than 5 hours without taking a benzo. I am somwhat contributing this to a light dmt trip i had yesterday although i dont know for sure but i know that psychadelics have a way or hitting the brains reset button. I have been seeking this specific drug out as i was not looking for a fun psychadelic trip, i am looking for an epiphany of sorts. Dmt is crazy, it leaves your ego intact which caught me by suprise, i am planning a breakthrough dose soon with the remaining 50mg but it makes me somwhat anxious as dmt is the psychadelic bungie jump, yesterday i made it to the edge but i didnt take enough to plunge out of my body. While it was happening it was a stange feeling of anxiety but i was confident in my ability to overcome it, i saw typical geometric patterns but it was so different than other psychadelis i have done. Does anyone els use psychadelics for enlightenment? I know it sounds cliche but i belive they make u use the parts of our brains that r not normally used.