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Great : I'm in kratom and mild phenibut withdrawls. Relapsed on benzos and have been heavily abusing MXE lately as well. I even dosed on poppy seed tea for a day, and tried to get heroin again, but I got burnt... Because of a 2-FMA deal. (actually the let is longer, but that is not important). A heavy 25-I trip at the end of this run really put things into perspective; but my girl did even more. She is amazing.

^all this mixed in the last week. I'm just glad I'm not back on heroin, and more importantly, I'm already detoxing from all the other stuff and not looking to relapse on H.

Don't do these drugs.

I know it sounds like I'm completely out of control, and all that, but I'm doing well.

I am a very lucky person.
<3

Stay up say down TDS
 
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DexterMeth said:
Great : I'm in kratom and mild phenibut withdrawls. Relapsed on benzos and have been heavily abusing MXE lately as well. I even dosed on poppy seed tea for a day, and tried to get heroin again, but I got burnt... Because of a 2-FMA deal. (actually the let is longer, but that is not important). A heavy 25-I trip at the end of this run really put things into perspective; but my girl did even more. She is amazing.

^all this mixed in the last week. I'm just glad I'm not back on heroin, and more importantly, I'm already detoxing from all the other stuff and not looking to relapse on H.

Don't do these drugs.

I know it sounds like I'm completely out of control, and all that, but I'm doing well.

I am a very lucky person.
<3

Stay up say down TDS
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your lounge posts are definitely more coherent than they were a few days ago

hang in there bud
 
DexterMeth said:
A heavy 25-I trip at the end of this run really put things into perspective; but my girl did even more. She is amazing.

^all this mixed in the last week. I'm just glad I'm not back on heroin, and more importantly, I'm already detoxing from all the other stuff and not looking to relapse on H.
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Made me tear up a lil tbh.
I cannot even convey in words how glad I am you didn't get that H.
You know this.
So much love Dex <3


My word: contemplative
 
DexterMeth said:
What's going on man?
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Way too much for me to even begin to type about it, but Ill summarize a bit:
  • Bittersweet relocation. Dont want to move, but I know a new environment, being with family, and an overall new life would do me some good.
  • Being emotionally ripped apart because of said relocation ever since I fell for someone... fell really hard.
  • Terrified of another suicidal episode due to the combination of what I have mentioned above.


And now I am left feeling alone. Some things are sometimes better left unsaid, or at a different time.
 
^^ Dude there are a LOT of people on BL who deeply care about you and your wellbeing, please reach out to us when you need to, okay?
It really really sucks to hear you're being taken away from your love, that fucking hurts. But you will be okay. Hang in there man <3
 
Seyer said:
Way too much for me to even begin to type about it, but Ill summarize a bit:
  • Bittersweet relocation. Dont want to move, but I know a new environment, being with family, and an overall new life would do me some good.
  • Being emotionally ripped apart because of said relocation ever since I fell for someone... fell really hard.
  • Terrified of another suicidal episode due to the combination of what I have mentioned above.


And now I am left feeling alone. Some things are sometimes better left unsaid, or at a different time.
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Im been/ being faced with such a similar situation in the last and still to go in the coming weeks, i have no idea how to prepare, just wanted to post and say that yer ur feeling alone but in a sence we lucky to be here, where support of any kind and to the extent of the posters/mods/admins can help us with... So much of it it up to us... i feel ya hey being in a somewhat similar place im kinda Glad I got here and i know theres others out there who is bein faced with the same chalenges and worse.
Keep well eh?!<3
 
Crestfallen & Lonely. I really thought that girl was into me, too. But appatently she's not. It's not that it was real love or sth., just bruised my ego.
 
Tense. I wish I had full control over when I can be totally alone so I can focus and not feel trapped.
 
Upset I just came home from a 5 day trip from visiting family and I went outside to sit on the patio and I'm looking at my yard and I'm like "oh the neighbor must have gotten a new fence" because everything looked different and then I realize... Somebody cut down all of the trees lining my fence so I can now see my neighbors back yard. I had a fond connection to those trees.

:! How could they!?!?
 
Right now I'm at a loss for words as to how i feel. Hopeless would be one word and another would be uncertain. I just don't know wtf I'm going to do with my life at all because there are so many obstacles to what i actually want to do that it seems damn near impossible.

FML right off :|
 
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Upset I just came home from a 5 day trip from visiting family and I went outside to sit on the patio and I'm looking at my yard and I'm like "oh the neighbor must have gotten a new fence" because everything looked different and then I realize... Somebody cut down all of the trees lining my fence so I can now see my neighbors back yard. I had a fond connection to those trees.

:! How could they!?!?
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If you own the property you live on, they have defaced its value,
you could raise a big stink....


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I am not sick, in pain, and my spine is not fusing into a rod.
There are no miracles in life, only the will to do.
 
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