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How Are You In One Word? v. Do A Little Dance, Make A Little Love

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OverDone said:
breaking down is a good thing every now and then. Shit, I walk around IRL like some kind of tough guy but recognize the value of tears (finally!) Do it!!!!!! :)
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Yeah but I have been breaking down everyday for the past 2 weeks. I need to do something, I just don't know what.
 
stellablue said:
rejected
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Ugh, horrible feeling! :( *Hugs*

Relieved~ that Today is nearly over, was so bored and too much time to feel sorry for myself, which I didn't need. At least I have an appointment tomorrow and can base my day around that.

@Dave: Heh At least you have a new Yoga wardrobe to last you for a while.;)
 
Dave said:
Yeah, today's better, thanks. I needed a day to feel weird and sort a bunch of things out mentally, but today is good. I did wind up with a bunch of new yoga clothes that I didn't really need though :)

ATM: basking. It's brilliantly sunny outside, and I'm really enjoying this sunbeam that I'm sitting in. Of course, that means that it's absolutely frigid outside, but that's not a concern right at the moment.
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Did you buy me the skirt I want?!?! hahahaha :D
I need to buy new clothes...........
I can't wait for a job!! I don't even have anything to wear to walk the beach, let alone work!



My word now: Multitasking. (or trying)
 
from the bottom of my heart-and-top of my mind.

TINK said:
Lonely
Depressed
Sad
Angry
Empty
Disappointed

Shit I could go on and on but whats the point.
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well, one good point is that you disengaged again, even with this high-lighted portion of your sentence. words are very telling, our thoughts are very emotionally tied, our heart at times fill us with over emotion, and our minds often perceive more then the Truth.
these words you began to write should be continued as a list of shit, until it just stinks and is thrown away, understood for what they are.
another practice of mine is; instead of sitting there letting these words wind oneself down, use them to wind-oneself-up...this is in summery and an example, the more you personally expand the better.
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start with depressed: define it; relate your current situation -honestly; relate previous situations -honestly; acknowledge the out-come & honest 'premise' in hindsight; conjoin now the out-comes of the past -- with similar 'depression' to come in the future -- & Live-in-Truth for the current moment.

this is important practice also for those who live in pain, as do you-and-i.
if this can be done routinely, enormous insight, creativity, and a most pure liberation is achieved.

go into 'it' as you are, where you are -- to come out of it with more, and return to a better place then you were before.
 
ocean said:
^What is that sig????? There is no link.?!

My word: Billieing.
(let's see who gets that! haha)
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^
biiiiieing, busy?

i must to try and rephrase my former response.
9>|i|<6
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its hard to say, thus...
:-X

it is a representation of duality, the-divide, dual-genderism, and ones true-self.
with many, or any-thing in life, we have inclinations to make
these assumptions, and to bring validity to a subject.
experiencing a subject, wisdom is gained from it, and thus
a degree of knowledge. from there you are able to form an opinion,
truth from yourself.
or, in isolation, pain, despair, extreme circumstances;
one is able to derive the essence of oneself, by understanding nothing
and the wisdom of silence, which comes crashing down after enough time
and the right train-of-thought, when one is only able to ascertain the truth of,
and from oneself.
reaching blindly into the dark, receiving only answers, leaping faithfully into the light, feeling the promise of myriad's; these are diversions from 'self', from your 'I', Lies via answers, or leading Truths; for example can open a pit-fall or 'Rabbit-Hole' of mirrors, representations of your exterior, but only confusion from mind and actual self.

understanding these things, you chose 'the straight and narrow' you go into the loathsome Fear that is the 'Great-Divide' to find hidden peace with in.
liberation from the confusion and tricks of pure light, or pure black, or no more of the 'grey' meandering timelessly for granted, weaving back and forth.

instead, after such coiling and dawning of mind, there is great liberation.
this isn't learned, ocean, this is my life, the consistent pattern of ran wild. it took allowing my-self not fight it, but to Go-Into-it like never before, for i was surrounded by some of the most burning catch-22's ive never never ever imagined to be in, or come out of at least with one leg, and half of a mind.


this is a breath what ive written, very simplified and full of holes,. but,,,
IDK, we will have our days in the sun with the shade, or nights in the dark with a fire; after acceptance and further growth is made -- as the deepest and most tried of friends, whom shattered massive diversity to discuss such things, intellectually or spiritual, with proven great strength.
 
packing my bags for socal, enough of this wallowing, time for this global nomad to get on her feet. i gotta get my state ID tomorrow, and then it's off to the ocean.

any takers? :P

edited to add: Thanks to those who were worried about my accident. I'm OK, and my car doesn't have any major damage. It sort of in the end has served as a trigger to make some changes in my life, i need to start being more healthy... It's fucking irresponsible to be behind a wheel as zoned out as i was... i had not eaten all day, been on a dilaudid pain pump at hospital, and taken 10+mg lorazepam and 300-400mg of amphetamine...
 
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^Oooh, ooh! Sounds good, one of these days im going to surf...have to learn how to swim first, I guess- apparently it helps! ;) Enjoy FF!=D

panic in paradise said:
^
i must to try and rephrase my former response.

its hard to say, thus...
:-X

from there you are able to form an opinion,
truth from yourself.
or, in isolation, pain, despair, extreme circumstances;
one is able to derive the essence of oneself, by understanding nothing
and the wisdom of silence, which comes crashing down after enough time
and the right train-of-thought, when one is only able to ascertain the truth of,
and from oneself.
understanding these things, you chose 'the straight and narrow' you go into the loathsome Fear that is the 'Great-Divide' to find hidden peace with in.
liberation from the confusion and tricks of pure light, or pure black, or no more of the 'grey' meandering timelessly for granted, weaving back and forth.

IDK, we will have our days in the sun with the shade, or nights in the dark with a fire; .
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If the sun refuse to shine,
I don't mind, I don't mind,
If the mountains fell in the sea,
let it be, it ain't me.
Alright, 'cos I got my own world to look through,
And I ain't gonna copy you.

Now if 6 turned out to be 9,
I don't mind, I don't mind,
~ J-Hendrix

;)

ATM: Anticipatory, sun is shining and there is a nice 'atmosphere' around the house, enjoying it. :)
(*Word stolen from N30)
 
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