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How Are You In One Word? v. Do A Little Dance, Make A Little Love

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pleased

I leave on Sunday afternoon now. So much to do and a meetup with a longtime BL friend whose path and mine will finally cross IRL this weekend!
 
That's some heavy stuff PiP. I can't truly understand what you are going through but it sounds rough :( Hang in there mate, Jah will provide.

I'm frustrated, apprehensive, jittery, and stoked all rolled into one....
 
lazy

I have so many things that need to be done but I plan to do nothing but watch Drag Race and get high.
 
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panic in paradise said:
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i see a you ditto,
and raise you a question...
dont wonder what thing, or nothing.
wonder, why?
whats my potential, some~thing.
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panic, you really conjured up a question that is rather well-suited to my current state of mind. Thank you :D! I'll have to invest some time and effort to get to the core of that one, though. Haha.
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PS. If you were referring to benzo withdrawals, man...I definitely know firsthand how merciless they can be. You can ride it out though. You've got it in you! =D I always got the urge to throw/break things—not the greatest! :\

Mood as of n o w: Mediocre. I'm going to leave the past where it belongs, all while simply remaining aware of my tendencies/triggers.
 
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optimistic - I finally got the documents in order for my personal training license and I'm working on the ones i need for certification for metal roofing. Both these areas I know well but it will allow me to move up out of here <3 . Life's looking good, physically struggling but this will pass.
 
Stressin.

I just can't catch a f'n break. No job, no money and a whole new mess of bullshit to worry about.
 
^ Me too.

I can't decide which word to use... pissed, fed-up, or just depressed.
 
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swamped
fucking hell studying is much more involved than I seem to remember

I gotta map out chapters, read the chapters, watch videos, read a coupla articles and do more written assignments

In addition I need to pack boxes, fix two computers and start transporting items that will fit in my car to my new apartment.

Okay... bitch fest over. its all gonna be well worth it
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omg yes!! i have an exam AND a presentation in the same class tomorrow. why my professor couldn't schedule them for separate days is beyond me...

right now i'm definitely procrastinating
 
Pretty gooood! =D Little tired and little stressed.

Just one stressor after another, it's just easier to deal with it when you're not fucked up all the time or feeling up and down all the time. :)
 
thanks mehm, it is heavy, too heavy.
my immediate thought waking,,, wtf do i do about this???
tiny amounts different places..? oi fuk.
--- im going to just feel like im dying an awful death until i do, if i cant get my body to allow TNF's now, and they start or have started more problems.
......
my ask why.

SideOrderOfOpiates said:
panic, you really conjured up a question that is rather well-suited to my current state of mind. Thank you :D! I'll have to invest some time and effort to get to the core of that one, though. Haha.
2hhq8tk.gif

PS. If you were referring to benzo withdrawals, man...I definitely know firsthand how merciless they can be. You can ride it out though. You've got it in you! =D I always got the urge to throw/break things—not the greatest! :\

Mood as of n o w: Mediocre. I'm going to leave the past where it belongs, all while simply remaining aware of my tendencies/triggers.
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^
heheh.
yes, time and effort are a must, but you have to accept, allow for things to fall into place also.

beeenzzoooos
ohhhz noooz
i hate thooose..

i dont throw things, i lay there and zooom, with the sensation a dragon is flying towards the house to destroy it and me.
this is the intense agoraphobic sensation that got me on them, years and years ago, i thought i would be for less then 6 months or so, but they seemed innocent enough.
over 2.5-3 years time i went from 6mgs a day, to .25 every other or 3rd day, then cold turkey, and POW. then i was reluctantly, locked up and hesitantly slamming a chair around out-side. + oxy w/d, but thats the least of my concerns, sure didnt help.
i take .75 to 1.25 a day now, but that would leave me a fried out mad-hatter im certain, from touching on the w/d's recently...
 
soaked
we got hit with a second round of snow that is significantly larger than earlier. I'm not even sure if I was allowed on the road or not
 
od, if snow is frozen.. how can it be wet? :)

i'm content, did some service work today. so feeling pretty good. better then i was.
 
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