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izzy66 said:
^^i couldn't agree more.

my little brother died last saturday night from sepsis/complications of diabetes. he was diagnosed at age 3 so it was a life long battle but he made it many more years than anyone expected.
-anyway-
there is no funeral, no trip to the cemetary. we're gonna get together on his birthday in july (he would have been 44) and celebrate his life.
he is my second sibling to die and choose cremation and a celebration of life rather than a traditional funeral.

my word:
quiet, very quiet
-izzy
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will be in my thoughts 'till the and after


<3
>!<
 
i appreciate the kind words. thanks y'all
he had been on dialysis almost three years and was suffering. he'd said all he had to say to everyone and was ready to move on.
more than anything, i'll miss hearing his voice on the phone.
today's word:
irritable
too hot, too humid, too bright, too many bugs...
-izzy
 
SORE.
My muscles all feel that they've been pulled!
I was busy and on my feet all day yesterday- My body is letting me know today that it is not happy with me! :)
But I've been resting up all day so hopefully after a BIG LONG sleep tonight I'm all rested up and my body forgives me.
 
Overwhelmed.

I just catalogued everything that I have to do and the social obligations that I've made for the next week, and I'm really not sure how I'm going to pull it off. I actually somehow managed to triple book myself for Saturday morning. How the crap does that happen?!
 
Burnt out or in just a one word that is close to it tired.

1. I work a very demanding job that i dedicated too much into, i should be on a sick leave because of my injuries/health and because of the fact that i'm burnt out. But since i've been off work so many days already, i don't want to give in.

2. My job end's in August, 85% on the company is already fired and this firm is going belly up. (I'm glad about it actually).

3. I take care of my schizophrenic mother and my younger siblings, mom has a very bad episode now).

4. No matter how much i earn and i earn a lot, it seems it's never enough for anything, but surviving...

PS. Also my condolences to izzy66.
 
STEROIDS4kids said:
4. No matter how much i earn and i earn a lot, it seems it's never enough for anything, but surviving...
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Yep, I can relate to this. Every month I seem to just scrape by until I get paid again. It's so frustrating.
I think most people feel this way about money too...

Also, STEROIDS, sorry to hear about your mum's condition and massive respect to you for being the guardian of the household. That must be a big load to bear and from the sounds of things you're doing an excellent job <3

Maybe you should take a sick leave day, just to have a tiny bit of time-out? It's a long time to wait until August, and one sick day won't hurt :)


Me: run-down :|
 
n3ophy7e said:
Yep, I can relate to this. Every month I seem to just scrape by until I get paid again. It's so frustrating.
I think most people feel this way about money too...

Also, STEROIDS, sorry to hear about your mum's condition and massive respect to you for being the guardian of the household. That must be a big load to bear and from the sounds of things you're doing an excellent job <3

Maybe you should take a sick leave day, just to have a tiny bit of time-out? It's a long time to wait until August, and one sick day won't hurt :)


Me: run-down :|
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Thank you!
But it's nothing new, she's been sick for almost ten years just like her sister and i hang around, because i didn't want my brothers and sister to be taken into custody. (That's what happened to my aunt's kids).
 
"It is like the most horrible, suffocating feeling of claustrophobia ...combined with the most crushing feelings of self-disgust and an intense, overwhelming feeling of envy...The envy is the worst part."

claustrophobic
disgusted
envious
to the Nth degree
 
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