How are you, in 1 word? v. 2011.2

[Schrei]

dizzy

My vicodin is wearing off, making me dizzy and sick

 

[Ds]

*hugs for D's*

And me, optimistic.

Shit, no kidding. I need to go enjoy a sunset now; balance things out.

yal.. yeah i still don't want to believe it.. shit it seems like just yesterday he was posting in the lounge, and now this. I have the hardest time of letting the idea go that i'm never ever going to see,talk, or hear from tally ever again. thats just really hard to believe right now.

anyways, yeah i relapsed. and i'm still in rehab. i don't care. fuck it, fuck the world, fuck my life. do drugs faster quicker stronger now then ever.
i really dont care anymore.. i'm sorry od,n30,dave.. if i let u guys down. :/

 

[panic in paradise]

^


all of my relapses i see as 'bad trips', they eventually became the most positively convincing experiences of why i should not.

 

[HeWhoHowls]

Pleased...

Turns out getting the GED will one sweet piece of cake.
College will be like the entire goddamm dessert.

On another note,
I wanna send love n strength to all those shaken by Tally's death.
Soon we will get back to smiling n I'm sure that will make him happy.

 

[n3ophy7e]

anyways, yeah i relapsed. and i'm still in rehab. i don't care. fuck it, fuck the world, fuck my life. do drugs faster quicker stronger now then ever.
i really dont care anymore.. i'm sorry od,n30,dave.. if i let u guys down. :/

Man don't beat yourself up too hard about this, that will only make you feel worse and add to the vicious cycle. Hell, I've been in an alcoholics therapy program for the last 2 months and I'm STILL not sober!! Talk about frustrating and pointless. At least you've been able to pull together some serious clean-time! That is amazing in itself brother


Me: dispair
God-fucking-DAMN IT!! Bluelight has lost two amazing people this week, this is just too much. No-one else is allowed to die, you hear me!! No-one!

 

[panic in paradise]

^not even no one

ill come find you

 

[drugfukkdrockstar]

I know Tally has died - who else?

My mood:

Disappointed.

 

[belarki]

^ Evad two people too many

Feeling anxious.

 

[Schrei]

I didnt know we lost anyone, thats sad. Was there a post a bout it or something, I havent seen anything.

 

[drugfukkdrockstar]

^ Evad two people too many .[/B]

 

[S.M.F.G]

Tired
been on one mission or another all day, im exausted. off for bloodtests tomorrow, to make sure eerythings dandy this year.

 

[panic in paradise]

here
well
blessed - there are many more moments we remember then these, and to make new ones equally as happy, is guaranteed. i keep wanting to say lets listen closer to each other, something, but dont know if thats possible(another blessing). taking just as much care for ourselves though as needed - remembering who we are, recognizing our unique worth, and how our lives do touch so many others seems enormous for us all individually.

 

[n3ophy7e]

here
well
blessed - there are many more moments we remember then these, and to make new ones equally as happy, is guaranteed. i keep wanting to say lets listen closer to each other, something, but dont know if thats possible(another blessing). taking just as much care for ourselves though as needed - remembering who we are, recognizing our unique worth, and how our lives do touch so many others seems enormous for us all individually.

PIP that is one of the most inspiring posts I've read in a long time Thank you

 

[Darksidesam]

Lonely.

Probably from the lack of social Interaction.
Probably from the fact this Verruca is stopping me from going for a nice ol Raving session up london.
and more than likely no work today

 

[ahint]

Good. I feel pretty today.

 

[**hAyzzZZ**]

Dying.

Exhausted. Just want to curl up and sleep forever but I have a looming ugly assignment I have to do tomorrow. I am counting down until uni holidays and 3.5 fat months off this hell.

 

[panic in paradise]

humbled

just love it when i enter a store to see an elderly man helping his wheel-chair bound wife into her manual chair from the stores electric one - stop what he is doing after making eye contact with me walking in for several moments, to then look at his wife and exclaim loudly with his mouth open -- "that guy is sick!"
___________________________
thats right old man - you want a job?

 

[Dave]

low

I hate this time of year. Just have to make it through the next couple of weeks, and I'll be solid again for a few months.

 

[n3ophy7e]

^^ Hang in there mate, PM me if you need to chat

Good. I feel pretty today.

So you should hun


Me: relaxed

 

[S.M.F.G]

Waiting
wanna get a look thru this house today if possible and start the paperwork to move outta this dump
Sorry to hear ur on a downer Dave... I dont really like fathers day, long story. but hope u stay well