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How are you, in 1 word? v. 2011.2

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Relaxed, remarkably enough. It's becoming an increasingly rare emotion for me to feel while clean and sober, but I do appreciate it when a wave of calm rushes by.
 
chillin........

now over a week clean, im house sitting a baller house and a dog in a neighboring city from where i live with my girl....medicating myself when needed, feeling good...
 
Over-the-fucking-moon =D

I have finally managed to get in touch wth the person that was going to be putting me up in scotland for my trip, I had cancelled my trip and made other plans as I couldn't get in touch, but now the trip is back on and I will be leaving tomorrow morning, with guaranteed accomodation and food and money to get home if I get stuck. Is the opposite to how it was this afternoon when I cancelled my trip.
 
Big congrats Mugz
I've always wanted to visit the area.
Lonely meadows of unnatural green, rolling hills caught in a fog-swept morning, that makes me smile.
Lucky you.
Takes lots of pictures.
 
duped:
switched my painkillers to what was supposed to be the equivalent, and a fair amount less $$ - cough* it isnt the equivalent
lol
my brother gets here the 18th, so im just going to not take hardly any this week, then try and take those shits in for an exchange...or im not going to be much fun.!

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i wanted some sort of BB tea, and found a BlueBerry Jasmine tea, but wowza, i probably stank up the store opening the jar. should blend up my own - maybe find a BB oil extract to use with jasmine and/or rose hips and a black-orange tea.
im wanting the anti-oxidants.
 
Fanfuckingtastic, outstanding, happy, excited.

Took a vaca not only from bluelight but from the internet in totality for 2 months. No email, no facebook, no youtube, no porn, not even to check anything for just a second. Best decision I could have ever made in my life and I can't tell you how something as small as this had such a HUGE and I mean HUGGGE improvement on my life and mood. Its obvious to me now that I suffer from a serious internet addiction and that this addiction actually effects my life more negatively than opiates do. In those 2 months I found a fulltime job, doing NA meetings 5 days a week, actually working out and running, got my sleep back to normal (finally I've been dealing with insomnia for years who would have thought it was 100% computer induced) and am seeing a fine little lady but for only 2 weeks now.

I honestly feel like a different person I just can't explain. I got into a rut of unemployment, internet/laziness/drugs 24 hours a day, and although I'm still on 4mg sub a day I'm not using anything currently thats gonna ruin my life.

Happy to be back!
 
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