strobemylobe
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 19, 2009
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I think this belongs in ED.
Bit of background about myself: Smoked weed for about 4 years, drank heavily for 3 years, I've done mephedrone/MDMA probably about 8 times since January, and did some MDMA about 2 weeks ago. Felt rough as fuck the next day but have been fine since. Until last nite. I was drinking, having a great time. All of a sudden I got this shock of anxiety and had to calm down and was fine. Had a great night the rest of the night... but then comes tomorrow...
I was at work today, hungover from the night before. It was all going fine, there was a large queue of customers and it was really busy. All of a sudden, I feel the onset of a panic attack coming. I felt so horrible I had to stop what I was doing and go in the back, and seriously contemplated telling my co workers that I had felt like I was going to have a panic attack. I felt so bad, like I was going to die, and for the first time in a very long time I felt like I wanted to cry. I just wanted to bawl my eyes out to someone and tell them everything I was feeling. But I kept this inside and it passed, and I walked up to a hill and relaxed on my break and was fine. But still, I feel kind of depressed. Currently trying to find my 5-HTP. Going to go for a run later.
I've also noticed sometimes when I go and meet a group of people, if there is a large group, I feel extremely socially anxious, especially if we're smoking weed.
While getting all this down in sentences does make me feel better, I've basically gotta ask:
Should I see a doctor?
Should I ask my family about history of depression?
Is it just myself that is susceptible to this? I know people that have done pills every weekend for years and seem fine..
This shit just makes me think why did I mess with drugs other than weed in the first place.
Bit of background about myself: Smoked weed for about 4 years, drank heavily for 3 years, I've done mephedrone/MDMA probably about 8 times since January, and did some MDMA about 2 weeks ago. Felt rough as fuck the next day but have been fine since. Until last nite. I was drinking, having a great time. All of a sudden I got this shock of anxiety and had to calm down and was fine. Had a great night the rest of the night... but then comes tomorrow...
I was at work today, hungover from the night before. It was all going fine, there was a large queue of customers and it was really busy. All of a sudden, I feel the onset of a panic attack coming. I felt so horrible I had to stop what I was doing and go in the back, and seriously contemplated telling my co workers that I had felt like I was going to have a panic attack. I felt so bad, like I was going to die, and for the first time in a very long time I felt like I wanted to cry. I just wanted to bawl my eyes out to someone and tell them everything I was feeling. But I kept this inside and it passed, and I walked up to a hill and relaxed on my break and was fine. But still, I feel kind of depressed. Currently trying to find my 5-HTP. Going to go for a run later.
I've also noticed sometimes when I go and meet a group of people, if there is a large group, I feel extremely socially anxious, especially if we're smoking weed.
While getting all this down in sentences does make me feel better, I've basically gotta ask:
Should I see a doctor?
Should I ask my family about history of depression?
Is it just myself that is susceptible to this? I know people that have done pills every weekend for years and seem fine..
This shit just makes me think why did I mess with drugs other than weed in the first place.