prettysimple
Greenlighter
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- Mar 27, 2024
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Hello, hello!
Just some thoughts, but please stay with me
I think it's kind of crazy how you can be a part of a community like this and kind of just get information and have people unknowingly helping you without you know really having to interact much. I love that the community is willing to do that and provide information even to the people that aren't really interacting a whole lot. I am that person that has not interacted a whole lot but I have been around for a long time I've seen the site grow so much and I'm unbelievably impressed with the community here and the way that people whether they're dealing with vices or they in long term recovery or not in recovery how people are treated the same regardless it's such an unbelievably beautifully charged environment to be a part of so thank you for letting me be a part of it.
Now with that being said, I'll get to the question. I have done meth since January 2017. Smoking it mostly as my preferred ROA. I buy about 17 gs once every 11 days and I smoke it by myself since my husband died almost 2 years ago. To say the least, I am so tolerant to the stuff that I can literally sit and smoke all of that and I couldnt even tell you if it is good or bad dope bc I don't even get high anymore and the only time I do actually feel anything related to this is when I do not have it. I won't even lie, the people who sit out here and talk about there isn't a physical dependency risk for methamphetamine use don't actually have a freaking clue about what they're talking about. i go through pure hell without it and can for real say that its worse than when i was using opioids. the anxiety, the physical sensation, the not being able to sleep or eat without it, the invasive dreams and overall feeling that something is just going to happen that is going to be really bad all create the type of situation that makes me not ever want to miss getting an order in too late and not have it, and for the most part I don't.
Here is my issue, I had a long term situationship with a vendor that I felt pretty confident in after buying exclusively from them for over 2 years but then their shit started having less and less actual dope in it, they aren't shipping out right ect ect. all the BS that comes with buying drugs i guess and after the last bag was nearly completely without any real dope i disputed and they apologized And said that they would send another immediately that they had gotten another well that has taken about a week maybe a little over A and I know that my tolerance has gone down drastically. I mean it's just the obvious you know you go from doing as much as I do to not have any at all for over a week you know that you are looking at a tolerance that is not what it was I'm not afraid of that from an overdose point of view however I do not like the idea of getting like super freaking twacked out all over again when made so much progress in coming out of those kind of phases with this stuff.
Does anyone have any idea of how I can like minimize the tweakiness that might come I'm guessing probably the first couple days Like I'm talking like jaw clenching things like that Just the things that are shitty doing this before you get more tolerant to it.?
Thanks for any feedback any of you might have I really do appreciate it
Just some thoughts, but please stay with me
I think it's kind of crazy how you can be a part of a community like this and kind of just get information and have people unknowingly helping you without you know really having to interact much. I love that the community is willing to do that and provide information even to the people that aren't really interacting a whole lot. I am that person that has not interacted a whole lot but I have been around for a long time I've seen the site grow so much and I'm unbelievably impressed with the community here and the way that people whether they're dealing with vices or they in long term recovery or not in recovery how people are treated the same regardless it's such an unbelievably beautifully charged environment to be a part of so thank you for letting me be a part of it.
Now with that being said, I'll get to the question. I have done meth since January 2017. Smoking it mostly as my preferred ROA. I buy about 17 gs once every 11 days and I smoke it by myself since my husband died almost 2 years ago. To say the least, I am so tolerant to the stuff that I can literally sit and smoke all of that and I couldnt even tell you if it is good or bad dope bc I don't even get high anymore and the only time I do actually feel anything related to this is when I do not have it. I won't even lie, the people who sit out here and talk about there isn't a physical dependency risk for methamphetamine use don't actually have a freaking clue about what they're talking about. i go through pure hell without it and can for real say that its worse than when i was using opioids. the anxiety, the physical sensation, the not being able to sleep or eat without it, the invasive dreams and overall feeling that something is just going to happen that is going to be really bad all create the type of situation that makes me not ever want to miss getting an order in too late and not have it, and for the most part I don't.
Here is my issue, I had a long term situationship with a vendor that I felt pretty confident in after buying exclusively from them for over 2 years but then their shit started having less and less actual dope in it, they aren't shipping out right ect ect. all the BS that comes with buying drugs i guess and after the last bag was nearly completely without any real dope i disputed and they apologized And said that they would send another immediately that they had gotten another well that has taken about a week maybe a little over A and I know that my tolerance has gone down drastically. I mean it's just the obvious you know you go from doing as much as I do to not have any at all for over a week you know that you are looking at a tolerance that is not what it was I'm not afraid of that from an overdose point of view however I do not like the idea of getting like super freaking twacked out all over again when made so much progress in coming out of those kind of phases with this stuff.
Does anyone have any idea of how I can like minimize the tweakiness that might come I'm guessing probably the first couple days Like I'm talking like jaw clenching things like that Just the things that are shitty doing this before you get more tolerant to it.?
Thanks for any feedback any of you might have I really do appreciate it
