So i've gotten into a fuck buddy type of deal with this chick that I met. She's a serious IV drug addict. I like the girl but she's just bringing me down at this point. I though have a fuck buddy/drug buddy would be a whole thing but whole thing just feels shallow. She obviously just wants to get blasted and have sex. Afterwards it's like we never met. Just such and empty affair. I though I would love it but honestly i'm not this shallow of a person. I need to be at liked/loved by a girl to be with her. We need to at least be friends otherwise the sex feels completely empty.
Also, her drug addiction is really severe and I can't do anything to help her. All she cares about is her next high and sometimes we even cop together. This is all leading me to do more and more opiates/benzos. Not a good situation at all and I really need to find a way to end this thing (whatever it is). I mean i'm a guy and I still want to have sex with her but I also need to break off all contact with her if i'm going to get my addictions under control. Oh and did I mention that we work together?
Blah, just my luck, single for over a year and when I finally find someone it's a fucking disaster. I guess this whole situation just proved that I need something more then a fuck buddy situation but i'm still not completely over being dumped by the only girl i've ever loved two years.
Also, in the past week I got into a fender bender AND a speeding ticket. How much worse can my luck get seriously? All this bullshit is just making me want to numb my self out with heroin and klonopin which is what I plan to do all week![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. Life's a bitch ain't it?
Also, her drug addiction is really severe and I can't do anything to help her. All she cares about is her next high and sometimes we even cop together. This is all leading me to do more and more opiates/benzos. Not a good situation at all and I really need to find a way to end this thing (whatever it is). I mean i'm a guy and I still want to have sex with her but I also need to break off all contact with her if i'm going to get my addictions under control. Oh and did I mention that we work together?
Blah, just my luck, single for over a year and when I finally find someone it's a fucking disaster. I guess this whole situation just proved that I need something more then a fuck buddy situation but i'm still not completely over being dumped by the only girl i've ever loved two years.
Also, in the past week I got into a fender bender AND a speeding ticket. How much worse can my luck get seriously? All this bullshit is just making me want to numb my self out with heroin and klonopin which is what I plan to do all week
. Life's a bitch ain't it?