hope i get the chance to say goodbye..

[E-girl]

how precious life is,
how easily taken for granted.
i had the opportunity to see you one last time,
and not knowing it might have been the last,
passed it by
to work... to make a couple bucks...
so that i can have a fabulous weekend
i cant even bear to think of you,
alone in that hospital
scared, sick
not knowing what will happen with every next breath
i wish i would have known
i wish i could have been there
the first time,
when she called me and said you were sick
but i thought,
everyone gets sick
and if they are letting you out of the hospital,
then you'll be ok.
doctors dont send you home
if you're not.
but you were only home for hours,
and they took you back.
and all the while,
i was waiting on tables,
smiling and running food
not knowing you were dying.
what a horrible message to come home to.
that those cists they found in your mouth
were tumors.
no wonder you didnt want to eat.
and its cancer they say,
and in just hours,
its spread throughout your whole body.
another dark night in a strange hospital,
without the people who love you around you
and they wont let us see you...
and i'm so sorry
that i might not get the chance to say goodbye.
i saw a lot of my friends come and go,
but you were always there
me and you,
we shared a lot of dark nights
i remember falling asleep with my head on your chest
and tears in my eyes,
more times than i can count.
you never let me down
and you never ceased to make me smile,
even when i was hurting really bad inside.
i have so many pictures of you,
that everywhere i turn,
your face is there
and i'm so scared for you
i told you so many secrets in 5 years
now who will i tell them to?
i never thought i'd have to say goodbye to you,
i thought i'd be married and old
before this day came
and even then,
i wouldn't know the words to say
the house wont be the same without you
i hope that you make it,
just one more day
so that i can have the chance
to say goodbye.
i know that there's a chance
they might have to help you die
and i know i've never been brave,
but this once, i'll try to be,
for you.
i dont know why bad things happen,
to good dogs
i'm going to miss you Puppy.

 

[rm-rf]

awww
I had a dog for the first 12 years of my life, grew up with it and all. She was a mix of a german shepherd and a collie, and i swear she could understand english. If you said "hey, sit on the ground and do a handstand on your front left paw" she would. Well maybe not, but you get the idea. She never barked, she never hurt anyone or anything, except she liked to eat bees. Then one day she developed cataracts, which grew strong enough to cause her to be completely blind. Then she got such painful arthritis she could barely stand up, so my dad put her to sleep in her 17th year, when I was on vacation.
I miss my puppy too

 

[Dagny]

Oh sweetie. I'm sorry about your puppy, I know how much that little face means to you, how much it helps to come home to that unconditional love. You had a good friend for all those years, I hope that will make you smile when the crying stops.

 

[harraser]

when I was six we took my dog to the vet coz it had something wrong with it. after sitting outside for about two hours my dad came out and started the car. I asked where the dog was and dad said "It had cancer. They put it down"(way to soften the bolw dad). I cried for days and days, and I still remember her ugly little face. I hope youre Ok hun *hugs*

 

[Ms PeachyBreeks]

just found this, I have a pup of my own and he's got cysts all over his body, i am scared one day it will end up hurting him.

 

[Furnace]

I'm sorry to hear about your dog, E-girl.
I played with a dog last night for the first time since last summer.
I know how it is to lose someone so loyal.
{{{E-girl}}}