holy crap you haven't seen me in so long that I look like a shell of my former self

[Furnace]

i didn't realize it until i talked to you for
three minutes online the other day.

it had been weeks and weeks
since we'd had a good conversation.

You've been busy,
you said,
We've all been busy.
I've had time enough to create my own 12 step program.
Not that I had a problem,
but it's time to say goodbye to a part(y) of my life.

I wish you could see me right now.
My belly, almost vanished.
the fat under my chin, gone.
Clothes that I haven't worn for years,
now fit me like a glove.

I finally feel good in my own skin,
and you're not here to enjoy it with me.

 

[up all night]

I liked the feeling behind this one. I hate leaving people behind... sometimes I wish I could carry everyone from my past into my future and never have to say those long, fading goodbyes.

And similarly there are plenty of people in my life who I want to call and say 'Ha! Look at me now. You thought I'd never make it but I'm back in school and I've stopped partying and I have stable friends and a wonderful life. Still think I'm a fuck-up?'

But in the end I guess I just have to be glad that I can see the changes in me.

 

[neverwas]

I wish you could see me right now.
My belly, almost vanished.
the fat under my chin, gone.
Clothes that I haven't worn for years,
now fit me like a glove.

all my life ive been the one whos always been left behind...cause i am the fuck up...but that is really what made me the person i am today...i like to sit here and laugh at how they have gone no where with their lives...but i have progressed to a happier and more lovable and stable me

nice work.