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Hiya! I've been a member for a couple of months, a lurker for a couple of years..

fifikmck

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Hey everyone! I signed up finally, have been a reader of bluelight for a couple of years.

Im always soaking up info about drugs, drug use, abuse, effects, side effects, interactions, manufacture and withdrawals - Im always seeking more knowledge and frequently, more drugs, and giving advice, support and helping people find links/services they need. Despite still feeling like a noob , with 25 years of drug use (27 if you count legal ones) behind me and a couple of years still til i hit 40, I do have a lot of personal experience to share and usually can support it with references to studies, statistics and shtuff..

I sound serious probably but mostly Im just serious about getting off my face and surviving to do it again.
Meth is my one problem and true drug love, but have done or do use ghb, alcohol, diazepam, mdma, heroin, codeine, ketamine, seroquel, weed.. all the classics. I HATE coke, and have paradoxical responses to LOTS of atypical prescription and designer drugs.

I always wanted to be a psychopharmacologist, instead i became a meth cook (now retired) and watched my friends, partners and customers have the time of their lives at the same time as destroying them completely. Its been a long life and i have few regrets, lots of crazy stories and have recently (18 months ago) said goodbye to chronic suicidal ideation which Ive had since around 8 years old. Trying to figure out how to live without it, and kind of enjoying the novelty of being scared of death. I used to enjoy turbulence and I miss that feeling.
 
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I am an avid fan of all things substance related and read about them and discuss them often. Nice to meet you! I also like that you edited your post not to sound like a walter white type :)
 
Hi and welcome :) I joined and posted for the first time today after reading this forum for a while and was concerned my oramorph story was too much but you've made me feel better so thank you! I struggle with my mental health and have used weed and mainly prescription drugs for years...tramadol (although it does f all for me!) diazepam, lorazepam, codeine, then when that didn't hit the spot dihydrocodeine, then finally when admitted to hospital was given IV morphine for 3 days (I cried when they took it away) and then oramorph. I really messed myself up on it but now I have a weed agreement with my OH I just stick to that. I do really like diazepam but because of my past my doctors will only give me a limited supply. I've used potentiators (promethazine/grapefruit juice) and done a LOT of research to get the best out of my drugs but I've also messed myself up a few times...anyway it was good to hear your story and thanks for sharing x
 
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