Happy birthday to my best friend today! we're normally up to some kind of shenanigans by this time of day, but not this year. it's an odd feeling too, almost an alone feeling.
he's settling into his studio apartment down on the Gold Coast now. hopefully it's not in the ghetto, aka Nerang. i assured him i'll be turning it into a shooting gallery when i come to visit but i don't think he really saw the funny side.
some PAWS have really sunk in today. the lonesome feeling coupled with boredom are never a good mix and i've been thinking up some schemes in my head as to how i could get onto some harder opiates. it's probably a good thing i don't have a car in the driveway at the moment. truth be told i took a small (40mg) doseof temazepam the other day along with a few hundredd mgs of codeine and a few beers just to catch a buzz. i was only craving more during the whole time. gaba inhibitants aren't going to do me any favours at the moment so i'll put out that flame for a bit longer.
my sleep pattern is starting to skew off again. the last 2 nights i've been up till 3am and finally shutting shit off before i crash out. i'm getting solid sleep which is a bonus. RLS definitely gone and i'm comfortably stabilised on taking 150mg SR tramadol in the morning and in the evening. i actually skipped my dose last due to feeling reasonable. suprisingly i wasn't clutching at the pill bottle first thing this morning, a few houes after waking i dosed.
pain hasn't been too much of an issue over the last few days so it's not impeding my sleep. boredom is. and bad sleep hygeine - leaving the tv on, laptop next to me when i'm lying down kinda thing.
i've got things to do but still being sick is a little unmotivating as well. apparently another week of this fucking cough according to the doc, which seems about right from past sickness.
cleaning time now.
he's settling into his studio apartment down on the Gold Coast now. hopefully it's not in the ghetto, aka Nerang. i assured him i'll be turning it into a shooting gallery when i come to visit but i don't think he really saw the funny side.
some PAWS have really sunk in today. the lonesome feeling coupled with boredom are never a good mix and i've been thinking up some schemes in my head as to how i could get onto some harder opiates. it's probably a good thing i don't have a car in the driveway at the moment. truth be told i took a small (40mg) doseof temazepam the other day along with a few hundredd mgs of codeine and a few beers just to catch a buzz. i was only craving more during the whole time. gaba inhibitants aren't going to do me any favours at the moment so i'll put out that flame for a bit longer.
my sleep pattern is starting to skew off again. the last 2 nights i've been up till 3am and finally shutting shit off before i crash out. i'm getting solid sleep which is a bonus. RLS definitely gone and i'm comfortably stabilised on taking 150mg SR tramadol in the morning and in the evening. i actually skipped my dose last due to feeling reasonable. suprisingly i wasn't clutching at the pill bottle first thing this morning, a few houes after waking i dosed.
pain hasn't been too much of an issue over the last few days so it's not impeding my sleep. boredom is. and bad sleep hygeine - leaving the tv on, laptop next to me when i'm lying down kinda thing.
i've got things to do but still being sick is a little unmotivating as well. apparently another week of this fucking cough according to the doc, which seems about right from past sickness.
cleaning time now.