changerofways
Bluelighter
2C-E - 70 mg
30 snorted, 40 oral.
this trip started almost instantly due to the large amount that was insufflated, and peaked to a level beyond the scope of comprehension by the sane/sober. i was taken (at first through my thoughts and CEVs, but by the 6 hour peak quite literally) to a place that existed outside of matter and time. I left the realm of the natural universe, or at least standard human perception of it, and felt the primordial energies of all matter, all physical laws, and was one with them. I can't quite describe it, but it was an out-of-body experience the likes of which I can't imagine many people have achieved. for if they have, the world would be very different.
I was laying in my bed in what i suppose was a meditative set and setting so as to completely absorb the trip and be undisturbed. By the time of the aforementioned peak, my physical ego was entirely unaware of my surroundings, for I had detached and could still control my body, as my entire essence was spread and entangled throughout the known universe and more, exploring dimensions, light spectra, colors, and physics that can't be described. thoughts manifested themselves in alien physical planes, entire vistas stretched out before me.
This trip was markedly neutral, emotionally speaking. When in this detached space, I was keenly aware of two parallel planes of existence, two combatant energy spectra vying for dominance over my mind. One was woven from all knowlege, enlightenment, and well being, the purposes of all life and an interconnective web of organic essence. The other was very different, a coruscating darkness bridled with sentience that felt and appeared so evil, so malicious, and so bent on devouring the other plane it hurt to look at, was terrifying in everyway. Frankly seeing this force has actually dulled my fear of mundane forces and earthly things that many fear. it represented to me something so inimical to life that the best i can describe as is the actual essence of nothingness. absolute vacuum of existence, a complete primordial oblivion that consumes all sentience.
i did not end up loosing my mind, however, because of said neutrality. I was so detached from both of these planes that I could soar freely between them, passing through each unaffected by their polar extremes. I have yet to interpret any of this, but it convinced me that I'm on to something and I have sought after whatever it is on every trip since then.
2C-T-2 - 120 mg oral
This was equally intense as the previously described trip, in that it resulted in complete ego death. but whereas with the 2C-E i was cast into a state of neutrality, with this trip it was absolute euphoria. I was back in my alternate super-dimensional realm of light and darkness, but this time, I was one with the light.
As i started to come up, I walked outside into my yard. It was raining moderately outside, I felt each burst of moisture against my skin with a clarity that dwarfed any I had previously felt. within a few minutes I was shocked as I looked out across the lawn and saw emanating from each flower, leaf, branch, and creature a silvery-white glow. I followed it from source to source until I realized that the radiance was flowing between every life form around me, including myself. Which I realized upon staring at the palms of my hands and watching the light work its way from my fingertips into my veins and proceed to circulate down my forearms and then the rest of my body. Then, even more amazingly, i looked back up and the rain ceased. froze in midair. or at least slowed to a point where each drop was almost at a stand still. Pretty crazy, i though afterwards, but my perception of time was so altered that I was functioning normally when the rain around me was falling in slow motion. and sparkling with that same brilliant glow as it came.
Eventually, as I realized what was coming, I retreated inside to my bed to prepare for complete dissociation. It came soon after. I melded with all life around me, became at one with every life force in the universe, and immediately understood what the true meaning of life is. I have not refined my findings yet, but each trip i take to this reality i get closer to the ultimate truth. and when I do, I ll make sure i share it with you guys
DXM - 2000 mg![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
ahhh. dxm. wow. what a strange experience. especially at a fourth plateau dosage. I must say, definitely not for everyone. and not for me anymore either, as now i can take this much and, strangely, not get high. at all. so im allowing my bizzare tolerance to wind down for....a few years or so...
anyway, the shocking part was that i remembered anything at all, but what i do remember was reliving the entire night three separate times in my head. I had a short term memory version of the recent past and a memory of the future (which of course doesnt make an ounce of fucking sense). but essentially i was set back so that i was in some point in the past, which then became the present, therefore the present became the future. put that in your pipe and smoke it. i then of course had the present as well, all three time versions were cut and pasted over one another so that i was experiencing all three at once, subjectively. now keeping this in mind, try to imagine this little triplet of overlapped experiences/observed time streams changing and compounding on itself, in reaction to itself, infinitely many times each second. and the result is the number of nights that i lived and actively experience at once in the course of one single night.
30 snorted, 40 oral.
this trip started almost instantly due to the large amount that was insufflated, and peaked to a level beyond the scope of comprehension by the sane/sober. i was taken (at first through my thoughts and CEVs, but by the 6 hour peak quite literally) to a place that existed outside of matter and time. I left the realm of the natural universe, or at least standard human perception of it, and felt the primordial energies of all matter, all physical laws, and was one with them. I can't quite describe it, but it was an out-of-body experience the likes of which I can't imagine many people have achieved. for if they have, the world would be very different.
I was laying in my bed in what i suppose was a meditative set and setting so as to completely absorb the trip and be undisturbed. By the time of the aforementioned peak, my physical ego was entirely unaware of my surroundings, for I had detached and could still control my body, as my entire essence was spread and entangled throughout the known universe and more, exploring dimensions, light spectra, colors, and physics that can't be described. thoughts manifested themselves in alien physical planes, entire vistas stretched out before me.
This trip was markedly neutral, emotionally speaking. When in this detached space, I was keenly aware of two parallel planes of existence, two combatant energy spectra vying for dominance over my mind. One was woven from all knowlege, enlightenment, and well being, the purposes of all life and an interconnective web of organic essence. The other was very different, a coruscating darkness bridled with sentience that felt and appeared so evil, so malicious, and so bent on devouring the other plane it hurt to look at, was terrifying in everyway. Frankly seeing this force has actually dulled my fear of mundane forces and earthly things that many fear. it represented to me something so inimical to life that the best i can describe as is the actual essence of nothingness. absolute vacuum of existence, a complete primordial oblivion that consumes all sentience.
i did not end up loosing my mind, however, because of said neutrality. I was so detached from both of these planes that I could soar freely between them, passing through each unaffected by their polar extremes. I have yet to interpret any of this, but it convinced me that I'm on to something and I have sought after whatever it is on every trip since then.
2C-T-2 - 120 mg oral
This was equally intense as the previously described trip, in that it resulted in complete ego death. but whereas with the 2C-E i was cast into a state of neutrality, with this trip it was absolute euphoria. I was back in my alternate super-dimensional realm of light and darkness, but this time, I was one with the light.
As i started to come up, I walked outside into my yard. It was raining moderately outside, I felt each burst of moisture against my skin with a clarity that dwarfed any I had previously felt. within a few minutes I was shocked as I looked out across the lawn and saw emanating from each flower, leaf, branch, and creature a silvery-white glow. I followed it from source to source until I realized that the radiance was flowing between every life form around me, including myself. Which I realized upon staring at the palms of my hands and watching the light work its way from my fingertips into my veins and proceed to circulate down my forearms and then the rest of my body. Then, even more amazingly, i looked back up and the rain ceased. froze in midair. or at least slowed to a point where each drop was almost at a stand still. Pretty crazy, i though afterwards, but my perception of time was so altered that I was functioning normally when the rain around me was falling in slow motion. and sparkling with that same brilliant glow as it came.
Eventually, as I realized what was coming, I retreated inside to my bed to prepare for complete dissociation. It came soon after. I melded with all life around me, became at one with every life force in the universe, and immediately understood what the true meaning of life is. I have not refined my findings yet, but each trip i take to this reality i get closer to the ultimate truth. and when I do, I ll make sure i share it with you guys
DXM - 2000 mg
ahhh. dxm. wow. what a strange experience. especially at a fourth plateau dosage. I must say, definitely not for everyone. and not for me anymore either, as now i can take this much and, strangely, not get high. at all. so im allowing my bizzare tolerance to wind down for....a few years or so...
anyway, the shocking part was that i remembered anything at all, but what i do remember was reliving the entire night three separate times in my head. I had a short term memory version of the recent past and a memory of the future (which of course doesnt make an ounce of fucking sense). but essentially i was set back so that i was in some point in the past, which then became the present, therefore the present became the future. put that in your pipe and smoke it. i then of course had the present as well, all three time versions were cut and pasted over one another so that i was experiencing all three at once, subjectively. now keeping this in mind, try to imagine this little triplet of overlapped experiences/observed time streams changing and compounding on itself, in reaction to itself, infinitely many times each second. and the result is the number of nights that i lived and actively experience at once in the course of one single night.
but i must say that if youre a fan of Dex, it it something you gotta experience and decide for yourself. its just too alien to be either positive or negative.
) but 35, even 50 mg would not be fulfilling at all for me if i was going for intensity. I've taken 100 mg orally, which was second only slightly to a trip where i took 40 mg orally and snorted 30 just before the come up. 