Cannot count the number of times I wish I coulda used this as an excuse for dastardly deeds previously enjoyed (daily) by good 'ol me.
These days "it" is a thing of the past (for me) as it would seem (IME) that taking personal responsibility seems to make my/our life here more enjoyable, less "dark" and more full. Go figure... wish I woulda figured this out decades ago. Just my experience and apologies for getting off course.
Welcome Brit.
Looking forward to see what it might bring about next.
Be well and be free.