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Hi world . I just found I have a Bl acct from 2008... Last time I tried to clean up

An___Druu

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Nov 6, 2008
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29 now, my last ( and first) post in 2008 was something about the fear of facing OxyContin detox and family-forced rehab. I'm just getting into the site from this side , been reading the forums all this time, just didn't even remember I had made an acct... Or just too heroinized to bother w one. Anyway, I been hooked on smack for all this time, sometimes maintaining life better than others, sometimes on methadone, sometimes on subs(for sale of course) but always generally malaised at the inevitable realization that I have closed my mind, turned away from my soul,put myself in my own personal prison, and seriously fuckd the course of my life. And all the other shit. simultaneously overjoyed each day when the cap comes off.Crap. So yea this is me saying hi=] I just got ten days clean today for the first time in 8 months and I'm getting the vivitrol shot tomorrow . And actually I feel pretty fucking good. So that's weird. Any advice, experience w naltrexone , magical chants etc would be neat. Addiction is just too fucking weird to wrap my brain around
 
Ha. Too cool gettin a quick reply from the captain of heroin. Been reading your stuff for years. Bluelight celeb . But seriously how the fuck do u change ur name? Cuz I made mine when I was a oxy crazed 22 yr old. Now I'd go for something a lot more mature, like and_ddru
 
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