So, my name is cotton (here), and I recently acquired some valium during a trip overseas. I'm going through a rough patch (cheating husband who is deployed, and may have fathered a baby on a skank, that we may have to pay child support for...if we don't end up divorced--I'm under some heavy stress), and I always wanted to try benzos anyway. I dig pills. They are generic, but seem to be quite authentic generic...I even found a pic of them on wikipedia. I did some research prior to going, and that's how I found this site.
I'm afraid to ask for a prescription...I don't think my docs will give me one. We are military (not me anymore, but you have to get your leg cut off to get more than motrin from a military doctor). That said, I'm seeing a therapist that gave me a referrla to my regular doctor for meds...I'm not sure what they would prescribe. I don't want to gain weight, and it looks like most of the anti-depressants make you lose sex drive and gain weight...not cool.
Anyway, I used to recreationally use many types of things in my younger years, but nothing for almost 15 years. I was a raver back when raving was totally underground circa 1993-94? For those that are familiar with that, let's just say I tried a lot of things. (crystal (snorting, not free-basing), coke, MDMA, acid, mescaline, ritalin, but never H; I'm afraid of needles. Some of the drugs many more times than others, but I never really developed an addiction.) Maybe I should just go back to smoking pot to calm my nerves; that was always my fave. I gave up in 1996, when I joined the military (I'm out now, and I won my own business, so no testing
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So, anyway, I tried two valiums (20 mg all together, about 4 hours apart) the other night. I was very relaxed and calm during a particularly nasty, emotional call with the husband after that. Felt pretty relaxed and slept well. It was like there were nasty thoughts, but I could deal with them...they just didn't matter that much. I was clear-headed in the conversation, able to listen and respond logically, but I didn't feel like I wanted to throw up or throw things or scream or cry. Woke up the next day feeling great, compared to my usual hangover from dousing the emotions in booze. It was nice, but not quite the high I was looking for.
I forgot to mention, I had taken one before that on a previous day, when I thought I may not be able to function after a severe blow in discovering the truth...it calmed me down and allowed me to get through my day, no high though.
I guess I was expecting a little more high, but it really just felt like 3 glasses of red wine, minus the emotional overload that drinking can bring, the hangover, and the calories. My muscles also felt quite relaxed. I was languid. I'm being good about not mixing the V with alcohol (my main vice). I do not want to take them every day (mainly just because I don't want to waste my stash...probably not the best reason.) He comes back in two months, and I know I will need them then! I should have gotten more.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Anyway, here's my hello and intro to everyone. -cotton
I'm afraid to ask for a prescription...I don't think my docs will give me one. We are military (not me anymore, but you have to get your leg cut off to get more than motrin from a military doctor). That said, I'm seeing a therapist that gave me a referrla to my regular doctor for meds...I'm not sure what they would prescribe. I don't want to gain weight, and it looks like most of the anti-depressants make you lose sex drive and gain weight...not cool.
Anyway, I used to recreationally use many types of things in my younger years, but nothing for almost 15 years. I was a raver back when raving was totally underground circa 1993-94? For those that are familiar with that, let's just say I tried a lot of things. (crystal (snorting, not free-basing), coke, MDMA, acid, mescaline, ritalin, but never H; I'm afraid of needles. Some of the drugs many more times than others, but I never really developed an addiction.) Maybe I should just go back to smoking pot to calm my nerves; that was always my fave. I gave up in 1996, when I joined the military (I'm out now, and I won my own business, so no testing
) So, anyway, I tried two valiums (20 mg all together, about 4 hours apart) the other night. I was very relaxed and calm during a particularly nasty, emotional call with the husband after that. Felt pretty relaxed and slept well. It was like there were nasty thoughts, but I could deal with them...they just didn't matter that much. I was clear-headed in the conversation, able to listen and respond logically, but I didn't feel like I wanted to throw up or throw things or scream or cry. Woke up the next day feeling great, compared to my usual hangover from dousing the emotions in booze. It was nice, but not quite the high I was looking for.
I forgot to mention, I had taken one before that on a previous day, when I thought I may not be able to function after a severe blow in discovering the truth...it calmed me down and allowed me to get through my day, no high though.
I guess I was expecting a little more high, but it really just felt like 3 glasses of red wine, minus the emotional overload that drinking can bring, the hangover, and the calories. My muscles also felt quite relaxed. I was languid. I'm being good about not mixing the V with alcohol (my main vice). I do not want to take them every day (mainly just because I don't want to waste my stash...probably not the best reason.) He comes back in two months, and I know I will need them then! I should have gotten more.
Anyway, here's my hello and intro to everyone. -cotton
