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I have some serious neck pain. I'm currently undergoing pain management and will be having some nerves in my neck fried so I can live without pain and migraines for a few months.

Due to some insurance issues, I've had to put it all on hold. This also means I'm going to most likely be forced into detox from opana. I'm already taking 800mg ibuprofen 3x daily, so I will have no added pain management. I also take 150mg Zoloft daily for anxiety, depression and slight OCD (I wish it was the cleaning strain, but alas, no such luck. It's the curl in a ball and obsess strain.) I do have a stock of .5 Xanax that I use when needed that I expect to help me through this.

I've asked for 5mg Opana IR so I can cut down easier, but it's hard between the pain and withdrawals which amplify it. I'm down to 20 mg daily. Thursday is my final day. If my insurance isn't sorted out (been a month of waiting so far), then I'm outta luck and the detox begins.

I have two kids to deal with through all of this and a husband who is there when he can, but works.... a lot.

I know from dropping last week to 20 mg from 30 mg, I'm in for depression and discomfort (still not fully comfortable at 20). I'm okay with that. Friday I will have to get the 3 year old out to school in the morning and will be home with the 5 year old. He's self sufficient for the most part so I can hang on the couch. Little one will have to be picked up by 6. I'm sure the daycare is going to love having a sweating, crying and vomiting mom picking the kid up, but what can I do? Doubt the husband will be home in time.

Saturday (day2), my husband will take off of work. I can spend Saturday and Sunday on Xanax and curled up in bed.

Monday, Day 4 is my issue. It's my son's first day of kindergarten. What are the chances I'll be up and able to get both kids to school? I want to be excited and taking pictures. Not shaking and crying.

I will have to go back to work on Tuesday.

Do I have a chance of getting through this? I keep reading 5 days detox, but I'm low dose and not snorting or anything. I don't know if it's 5 days to normal, or 5 days of pure withdrawals.

I've been on Opana for about 7 months (never more than 30 mg prescribed, but there were bad days with more than that taken, and days with less). Before the Opana, I've been on Percocet or Vicodan for about 18 months.

Even if I do get to the dr this week, I want off the Opana. I don't feel that it works as well and it's too addicting. Percocet withdrawal was a day of crying, then a day of emotional, and then fairly normal.... oh... a lot of poo too. I would much rather be on Percocet again until my nerves are burned.

(Sorry, I talk a lot)

Thanks if you've read this far. I'm a huge fan of support groups and the friendships that extend beyond them, so I'm hoping to get some good help here.

And is cursing allowed? I don't want to offend....
 
Hi and welcome to BL!
First off, I can really relate regarding the neck pain as I'm in the same situation - and it's a bitch. Really horrible. Good luck with that. Be careful with the ibuprofen though, it's toxic at high doses (and 800mg 3x a day sounds like a huge amount..?!). Try to lay off the meds though. I know it's tough, but I was on various benzos and then oxycontin for the pain and it never ended well. Meds aren't long-term solutions, I'm pretty surprised you were prescribed Vicodin & Percocet for so long frankly.

You should be feeling considerably better by day 5. You'll surely not be feeling perfect, but it'll probably be enough not to be in too awful a state to bring your kid to school.

Anyway, hope that helped. Good luck with your situation and the withdrawals, just hang in there and remember it's always worth it.

(and yes cursing is allowed)
 
The percocet/vicodan weren't continuous. I would use it for a few weeks, then stop. The it turned into a couple months, then I'd stop. Progressively the pain got worse and the pain mgmt doctor switched me to Opana. I never felt the relief with it, but he insisted it was stronger. Now I get why it's stronger, but it wasn't for the pain relief.

I've been going through so much with them trying to figure out what was wrong. He's finally pinpointed it and I've got for a trial of the nerve burning, where they just numb and use a steroid. I had one day pain free, but still had to take 10 mgs of Opana that day since I was feeling sick and I knew he wanted me to taper down. Since then, the pain is back. I have one more "trial" run to be sure the first wasn't a fluke, and then the burning happens. The procedure is brutal and I actually passed out during it from the pain.

I just wish it would go away.

As far as the 800mg 3x daily, that is the maximum dose of ibuprofen for an adult. He knows that I take it and does ask about my stomach each visit to make sure nothing is going on in there. He's also aware that I require the 800 mg and 10mg Opana to even get off of my pillow in the morning, the pain is so bad. My kids call it the "kick in" medicine. They know it has to kick in before I can get up.

Makes for a miserable life.

I spend my day doing everything I can to alieviate pain. I've been to neurologists, physical therapists, multiple pain management doctors.... My GP finally got back involved after a psychosis episode in the middle of the night requiring 911 when a neurologist put me on meds that interacted with my Zoloft. She sent me to my current doctor, her nephew. He started looking at small things and ways to fix it and gradually got bigger. I think surgery is the end of the line, if these don't work.

Either surgery or decapitation. Somedays, I wish it was decapitation.
 
Just want you to know you are not alone. Very odd, you sound like me! I had an epidural where the dr went in and zapped the nerves a few time because of my neck shoulder pain. I have 2 kids I recently had to go to open house and geet them ready for school in the midst of withdrawals. I have anxiety and OCD to (but the cleaning kind where I obsess and waste my life away cleaning-but I am managing to control it better) I took hydrocodone though, not opana so I am not sure about your withdrawals. I just know I drank lots of redbull, 5 hr energy, and vitamins. I felt alot better after a week but everyday it gets a little better.

I wish you the best of luck! Hang in there.
 
what thing I have lots of exp with in OP WD... I can tell you this...

If you really want to you can be jumping up with joy, taking photos and doing whatever else you need to do. You might look sick, sweaty, and you will feel like shit but you can push through it, and im not saying it having not had to do it my self, I used to have to work with a smile on my face during OP WD and I admit it wasn't always easy some days were worse then others but if I had to be super happy one day I could fake it enough to fool the people around me... I know sometimes people noticed things here and there... but ... even though ya your going feel bad you can fool your kids and you can do everything you need to do. Just give your self a reward after its over maybe a drink of wine or something and then hold that image in your mind.. (when this is over I get to relax)

I guess to your Q ya its going to suck
 
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