CountryGurl
Greenlighter
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- Feb 12, 2020
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hi there, I stumbled across this forum a few times but finally plucked up the courage to sign up. A bit about me.... i'm in my mid to late 30's. Female from Australia. A professional at the top of my field, live a great life but have one thing that consumes me.... the use of opioids. I used to love a drink, too much. I don't anymore (thankfully) but my issue is 3 years ago I was involved in a serious accident that left me with several broken bones, including a badly broken femur and a dislocated hip. Prior to this, I'd barely touched pain killers. Obviously I was on a decent amount for a long time, 3 years on I still now have issues with severe pain despite seeing pain specialists etc.
Sounds legit? Well it is, but my issue is I also LOVE my codeine and oxy. I continue to take it even if I have 'good days'. Now i'm on a relatively very small dose compared to most (around 10 or so mg of endone a day and about 240mg of codeine a day. Some days I take more, which means I run out faster and then panic as i'm scratching around for some and have to go back to the doctors earlier than I should to get another script.
I spose I just wanted to introduce myself, say hi, and maybe start a dialogue about it. I can't talk to anyone about it as they all just say 'stop taking it'. I can't, it's literally the only thing that works for my pain AND being honest, I absolutely love it. I keep saying I don't want to increase my dose and just manage on what I am taking at the moment but when I have a flare up of pain i'll take 30 - 40 mg of endone a day and I enjoy it (aswell as it kicking the pain).
I've been thinking of ways to make it last longer or more intense so I don't have to take as much and make it last longer. I also get guilty that I hide the fact I enjoy it from everyone.
anyways, hello!
Sounds legit? Well it is, but my issue is I also LOVE my codeine and oxy. I continue to take it even if I have 'good days'. Now i'm on a relatively very small dose compared to most (around 10 or so mg of endone a day and about 240mg of codeine a day. Some days I take more, which means I run out faster and then panic as i'm scratching around for some and have to go back to the doctors earlier than I should to get another script.
I spose I just wanted to introduce myself, say hi, and maybe start a dialogue about it. I can't talk to anyone about it as they all just say 'stop taking it'. I can't, it's literally the only thing that works for my pain AND being honest, I absolutely love it. I keep saying I don't want to increase my dose and just manage on what I am taking at the moment but when I have a flare up of pain i'll take 30 - 40 mg of endone a day and I enjoy it (aswell as it kicking the pain).
I've been thinking of ways to make it last longer or more intense so I don't have to take as much and make it last longer. I also get guilty that I hide the fact I enjoy it from everyone.
anyways, hello!
