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hi I'm new to this and joined for support while i go through heroin withdrawal

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babyj

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i always read through this stuff for drug info. i have been on and off heroin for a few years and mess around with meth from time to time. but the heroin has become a major problem and my girlfriend is about to break up with me. so i need to get off it for reals. starting tomorrow. i have a little bit left that i plan to finish tonight. the shitty thing is i have work tomorrow. but i know day one isn't as bad as day two and three which will be my days off and hopefully by day four (monday) i will be able to function. i just need to get through this. i wish i didn't love getting high so much. its ruining my life. i never see my friends or do the things i love to do. it has fully consumed me. and i feel unhealthy. so wish me luck. i feel like logging on here and posting my progress will be motivating somehow. so thats what I'm gonna do
 
I feel for you. Tried stopping a couple of times myself, but never while holding down a job. Wouldn't it be wiser taking a week off while you rattle?

I'd be interested in following your progress. It might also help you.

Anywho, good luck!!
 
I have no experience with either drugs so I can't be much help in terms of advice or understanding the process. I wanted to comment because it can sometimes take time for new posts to get a reply. I look forward to hearing your progress and am routing for you! I'm sure there will be times when you're wondering why your putting yourself through it but remember the outcome you're searching for and find who you are outside of dependence. I wish you the best of luck. ?

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I am really confused with how to post on this thing. Like can I only post a thread in the New Member Introductions? I was going to post in the recovery forum but I don't see a link to do that. I appreciate your guys interest in following me. I do think it will help. I usually just read other peoples stories but I have a story of my own that maybe others will find helpful or comforting to relate. And yeah it is going to be tough quitting while working. But the worst part of it will be over the weekend, which I have off. I am about to use the last of what I have right now and it will get me through part of my shift. I have been so bad lately that I've been smoking H in my car on my breaks at work. So I will probably start feeling the withdrawals after a few hours. I am going to stay strong tho. I do have methadone that my drug dealer cousin managed to get a hold of for me, in case of emergency but I really want to just be opiate free so I will avoid using that at all costs. So here we go. I'll post after my shift and let y'all know how it goes...
 
w0w0mg said:
Welcome to the forums!
That's fantastic you won't to stop doing heroin, I have gotten clean from the support of Bluelight too!
I wish you luck!
Here is a link to create a new thread in Sober Living:
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/newthread.php?do=newthread&f=269
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hey! i am not sure if i am replying to you correctly but anyway, i actually read your story! and its like identical to what i am going through. it was from a couple years ago wasn't it? are you still sober? thats awesome. and thanks for the link!
 
how on earth are you gonna be able to quit if you gotta go to work? Do you at least have any methadone? Why don't you take time off work? Straight up, I'm telling you you're gonna fail & relapse. You're only human ffs & you'll be too sick & depressed to be at work. You'll just end up scoring more H to get you through work. So yer prolly gonna say...that you can't take time off work cuz you need the job, you the money, you got lotsa bills..etc,etc. Wat I'm trying to say is...yer going about this all wrong. Except for keeping this blog & writing about yer experiences on here. That's important. Ok..so if you just have sum crappy job & you're really serious about quitting...& above all you WANT to quit. (do you?) Then what you need to do is A) take time off work or quit the job...& enter detox then rehab for 3 months...or B) quit the job or take time off & detox yerself at home or somewhere else...or C) don't quit yer job....get on the methadone program...ifu don't wanna do that then...go buy sum juice(methadone) from friends or someone....take the juice for a while...like a week or so...then wean off that...then quit the Down(Heroin)..with the help of benzos,weed & lotsa support from yer GF...you'll be horny as fuck anyways,,,haha,,,good luck bro PS...Keep posting yer progress.even if u relaspse. Yer helping others too.!!
 
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yup....I told him that too. That he's gotta quit his job or take time off B4 he can kick his habit. He's setting himself up for failure. BUT...the important thing is he's trying. That's a huge step!!....I like how you wrote..."Tried stopping a couple of times myself"I bet you've tried to quit way more than that right? So how r u doing with yer relapse/recovery???
NavQ said:
I feel for you. Tried stopping a couple of times myself, but never while holding down a job. Wouldn't it be wiser taking a week off while you rattle?

I'd be interested in following your progress. It might also help you.

Anywho, good luck!!
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babyj said:
hey! i am not sure if i am replying to you correctly but anyway, i actually read your story! and its like identical to what i am going through. it was from a couple years ago wasn't it? are you still sober? thats awesome. and thanks for the link!
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It was actually pretty recent :)
I have been off heroin for a while now and I only use Kratom.

Thanks for reading my story, it's been one hell of a ride, but it's so much better in the end!

You can do it too! Just don't give up and take it one day at a time!
Much love to you!
 
olympic smoker said:
yup....I told him that too. That he's gotta quit his job or take time off B4 he can kick his habit. He's setting himself up for failure. BUT...the important thing is he's trying. That's a huge step!!....I like how you wrote..."Tried stopping a couple of times myself"I bet you've tried to quit way more than that right? So how r u doing with yer relapse/recovery???
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Well, I started using on my 30th birthday -- 21-years ago -- and I've tried to stop twice (honestly! lol) by reducing my meth. Both times I fell on my ass a matter of days after getting clean! I turned 50 last year and hit the gym...lost 56 Lbs and started feeling better than I had in years. I was a bus driver (I've had a shit-ton of jobs but that's the best paying) and now I plan on going back. I have an interview on Tuesday morning. I also manage a small entertainment online magazine based in California. I run it from here in Scotland. There almost no money in it, but I get to watch the latest movies and talk to actors and directors. I can still do that and drive. (Sorry for the long-winded explanation!!) I now have 12 months to get my ass clean. I plan on writing up the whole thing here. I'm down to 34 ml meth, however I still indulge in H and very occasionally crack.
 
w0w0mg said:
Welcome to the forums!
That's fantastic you won't to stop doing heroin, I have gotten clean from the support of Bluelight too!
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Excellent!! Here's hoping I can do it, too. Is there an app for the site?
 
I found the mobile site to work very well! I'm not sure if there's an actual app. You got this though!! Take it one day at a time and don't give up. It took me many relapses to get this far but it was worth it! Much love!!!!
 
Congrats on your first (and biggest step!)

Putting down opiates is one hell of a commitment, but it's possible to get over it. In my years of experience I've learned that one of the key things to sobriety is changing PEOPLE, PLACES and THINGS.

Best of luck to you, and hope you make it through all this and come out feeling so much better than you've ever felt.
 
Good luck, friend. I recently attempted to get off H while juggling a busy work schedule. Didn't go well for me. I made it one day and the thought of having to do it again was too daunting. I Got high. Following night I was trying to grab some more but my dude left me hanging. Don't ask why, but it led to me getting a ball of meth and getting so high I called in 2 days in a row.

Logic. Not even once.
 
NavQ said:
Well, I started using on my 30th birthday -- 21-years ago -- and I've tried to stop twice (honestly! lol)
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No apologies friend - your reply is amazing. As is your transformation. I'm green with jealousy.I sure wish I could be as successful as you are. You're truly a walking miracle. You're remark about how you've tried to quit a couple times must have sounded sort of funny to me. Perhaps I thought people, like myself, who've been addicted for close to 20 years should at least try to quit more times then that.
For example, I've been chronically addicted to drugs for close to 20 years........ I cower with regret every time I hear myself say it or write it ....... I like to say that I've literally tried to quit thousands of times. I try to quit every day! EVERY DAY! Yes I wake up almost every single day or I go to sleep every single night, telling myself - This is the last time! Tomorrow I shall quit!.
That's what I call serious denial or extreme self deceit. Sad.
Nevertheless your story is inspiring. You live in Scotland? Well, isn't that original. You also run an online entertainment magazine & talk with celebrities!? My gosh!..You're my hero! 8o8o8o8o
 
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When I quit H this last time, I kicked for 3 weeks. It was horrible. But it can be done. I hope you are ok, please keep going and posting.
 
Man, I am so proud of you for deciding to quit. I have dabbled around with pain medication but not H itself. Both my parents have been addicted to H my whole life, on and off. I have seen them go through hell and back, and you are saving your life and even all of your relationships by quitting the shit. My dad says that it can take up to 2 months before you feel completely back to normal. Don't let this discourage you, the withdrawal wont last as that, but still longer than you would like. As i'm sure you know, its gonna feel like hell, but you are saving your life. My boyfriend's best friend died from an overdose a couple of years ago and its been tearing him up inside ever since. I know that you would never want to put your loved ones at risk of losing you. Be strong... if nothing else, don't be ashamed to try the methadone clinic. It has helped me quit pain pills and helped my parents quit H. Best of luck to you.
 
ComfortablyNumb95 said:
You can use the mobile version of the site, but I find the desktop version to be far far superior, I hate the mobile site.
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Thanks...I'll stick to the main site. I've fairly recently discovered just how useful apps can be for controlling certain things. Though there may have been one for this site, although, it's not really a necessity in this case.
 
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