Hi I am new and I want to introduce myself

[Taperingoffrxhell]

So basically the name sais it all, Basically im working on tapering off of opiate medication i was put on for pain reasons, and became addicted to physically mentally emotionally, etc. Im sure people already know this, cause i have passed by this messae board many times, i just never joined it. However I do need support, and do wish to find support, cause tapering off this stuff is hard to do alone, but i think its helpful to have encouragement from others and place to share what has worked for you and what has not, and also find hope in others who have successfully done it themselves, i have a of respect for anyone who has gone throgh this and made it through this, its really hard to do, but it is possible, and I was able to go down to half what i was taking, although then i had a accident and surgery, and that took me off track and i had to do it again, i am hoping this is the last time i have to every taper myself off and that i will be able to be free from the shackles of addiction, i do know somethings that have helped me personally that i can share of a hollistic natural kind, and vitamins as well, im on a special diet and vitamin/ amino acidl, herbal supplement regime and that really helps beleive it or not. A lot of the mental torment its like the devil in your ear telling you to take an extra pill or just half and you have to battle that demon, and thats quite a battle. Im going to be starting hypnosis for addiction soon, and im excited about that, they do EMDR, and also somatic something or another, as well as teach you coping skills through teaching you self hypnosis and that also helps with pain reductio, a lot is in the mind and what you believe if you believe in yourself you can accomplish so much more, then if you dont and a lot of us do not beleive we can do this, but ive seen a lot of inspirational youtube videos which sparked my going down half, i did sleep throughout the time i was gong down, but I was inspired by some youtube videos chronicling people going cold turkey, day 1- day 30 or people tapering and trying to help others. And i really felt inspired by that. SO thats what i hope to be able to share with you, and that you will share with me your experiences your mistakes what you learned from them, and what you changed, what positive you know that helps, and i share the same. I do not think i am better then anyone, I am humbled by my addiction, im sad mostly for my mom, cause she keeps going to social workers and talking to people about my problem, and its really painful when she starts saying what happens when she dies if im not off the medicine, like shes never going to see me have a child or get married or get off the medicine and be doing well. Im like imprisoned by my situation thas whats its gotten to this year. I never thought of it as hurting my mom, it hurts me to hurt my mom, it hurts me to be stuck in the prison and i am trying very hard to get out. I think spend enough time in this prison and i want to break free by any means neccesary.

 

[spork]

Welcome! You should definitely check out The Dark Side if you haven't already done son. You'll find a lot of support there and a lot of caring people that know what you're going through.

It sounds like you have the right attitude for quitting and are doing this the right way and for the right reasons. I wish you the best and hope to see you posting more around the board.

 

[twofortea]

Hi. I'm currently in a love/hate relationship with my pain meds as well. Alas, I don't see myself getting off of them anytime soon as I don't even have a clear diagnosis as to what's causing the pain. Doc says it's partially caused by IBS but the rest of it has been mostly them testing for this and that and everything else. I'm currently doing somewhat better and I can totally understand that demon of "oh, what's another half going to do?" Big hugs for you. You can do it. You've already done one of the hardest parts and that's just saying you need/want to stop.