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lossingit

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I think I should of started here , I choose my user name because some days I feel like I am lossing it , I got on this site because I am going to quit a sub maintenance program of a year and I am just ready to be free and sober of all drugs and I feel like I am going to need support. I posted in the thread janeary getting and staying sober. I do have a plan and I hope it works I am going to give it my best shot. I am really rather tired of feeling foggy. I am ready to do this and will give it my best shot. It seems from what I have read it varies for people the wd and the longevity of it.... so I am praying I can do this , I want freedom from all mind altering substances, my area I live in is full of aa Nazis so going to a meeting and taking subs, not a good idea they are quick to tell you that you have a crutch, definitely wont find a sponsor unless you lie, then I would be defeating the biggest rule in recovery honesty besides not using. So once I am clean I will start the meetings and working a program until then its me and what ever support I can find on here... but anyway that's why I am on here and I just might be able to share some experiences to and we can all help each other!!!
 
Hey lossingit.. Welcome to Bluelight:) I saw your post in the getting staying thread and you know I once went well past loosing it.. i lost it=D.. LOL.. but I have since found it and a whole lot more. This is possible and you can do it. so much good advise and support in many places on Bluelight. But I hope to see you become a regular of The Dark Side and Sober Living. Seems to me you're at the begining of a whole new life;)
 
Welcome to bluelight, like neversickanymore said, we have all been at the point at loosing it. Stay strong sweetie and know we love you.
 
Welcome to the site lossingit! We're here to support you all the way, and keep it up :)
 
Welcome lossingit. This place really is helpful...it just takes time to find your way around. Just by reading this, it has directed me to the places I want to go. And yes, let's support eachother...all of us. That is really important. I am in the same boat, and want to get out of it. We will help eachother. Others here are such inspiration, and give so much hope to all of us.
 
hi and i would say your finding it now , because you can see you need to help your self
 
Thank you everyone for your kind words I needed to hear them tonight , because some days its just worse than others and today is one. I have taken some time off work to get off of these subs and its not going to good mainly because I went down from 8-6 mg a day to 2-3 a day and have felt like crap for 2 weeks. I have 3 sons who are older and on there own but they stop by a lot and Saturday was our monthly family night and they just think I have been sick and having bad headaches. I need advice I am going to start a thread and ask some questions I am so damn confused !!!!!!!!!! Really I just want to be happy again and feel again, I want to smile and go to church and meetings. I want to want to feel excited and I just feel dead right now inside ugh I am sorry I sound so negative its just hard and I am usually the positive one .
 
Hate to see you struggling lossingit. Feel free to check out our recovery forum and you'll get lots of support! <3
 
Why did you go into recovery in the first place? Where you forced or where you doing it because you want more control over your life? What ever the reason is I hope that you make the right choice.
 
How are you doing now lossingit? Hope everything is fine. I hate to see you struggling and you deserve better than this.
 
thank you I am doing okay , I think I finely evened out on what taper I did because I am feeling a little better. I did find out this month though that my insurance stopped paying for my script so I am really glad I have decided to go ahead and "jump" but I can tell you this I am scared shitless I am down to 2 mg a day. It is going to be soon I am wait I can ing on money and then I am getting out of town to do it....... If I can remember its temporary and then I will have my life back I will succeed , easy to say now but when your in full blown wd no sleep for days, crazy legs, depression yeah you know
 
Welcome, I'm new as well so if you want we can be noobs together (nh).
Found a quote that might help ya out a bit;

“Patience is produced in the midst of storms; it blossoms under the intense pressures of the storms.”
― ​
E'yen A. Gardner
, ​
Break Free

The storm will pass, hang in there and it'll get better.
 
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