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Hi Guys, lil update on me

SineWaveSoldier

SineWaveSoldier

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Hi Dark Siders. I've been off here for a while for good reason. I've moved in with my girl, and am expecting my first child with her next summer.
I've been staying relatively clean, no cocaine or opiates or benzos at all.
I have just been offered the most amazing job opportunity. Making crazy money. Traveling on the road setting up new department stores, staying in beach condos most of the time with a $700 per wek per diam and just stacking money to start a life with the most amazing girl that I love more than I've ever loved any woman in my life.

I've been getting DJ gigs, shits going good. I've regained my spirituality and pray on a regular basis. It feels like God is rewarding me for all the strife I've encountered in my life. Its a miracle I'm alive; and I've always known I am here for a reason. Now I have that reason, and purpose, to use the drive I posess to suceed.

I was the worst kind of Junkie, I took it to the edge and even fell off that edge a few times. I've od'd and flatlined before. My prayers and wishes to live a peaceful life I believe are possibly finally being answered.

I've been suicidal so many times, but for all of you struggling just hold the fuck on like I did. I lost 20 pounds from not eating, cause i was broke. But i stayed off the hard shit and put my head down and soldiered on. You can too.
 
thanks for the inspiring story; i'm on a similar path out of darkness and in a year or two hope to be where you are. You never know how shits going to turn out so indeed hold in there if you are suicidal, something great could just be around the corner. You cannot progress without struggle, just the way it goes in life.
 
Congrats on everything, SWS. Your update made me smile. :) It's amazing how much things can change in a relatively short amount of time, huh?
 
Sinewave, that is wonderful. I'm so glad to hear that things are looking up for you. Congratulations on the little one. I think you are rewarding yourself with faith in yourself. I really believe that the ingredients to create a good life are within all of us no matter what circumstances befall us. As RR said, you never know what will be around the corner. When you get that sure center inside you, you can be light as feather or hunker down and be a rock--whatever the situation calls for. It's important to remember that only you can ever take that away. I'm really, really happy for you, man! You worked hard to get where you are.(((<3)))
 
Thank you guys. And yes you're right Spork. I was just talking to my girl about how I've been sleeping on couches and floors for 7 months. I'm so happy and grateful it brings a tear to my eye sometimes.
The last few years for me have been my growing up. I've relapsed and hit another bottom and been so close to homelessness and suicide it wasn't funny.
I stumbled on bluelight when I was at a low point, and reading through here helped me keep the will to survive.

My life isn't perfect today, but I m free from the bondage of addiction. For the most part. I still go out and have a few beers once in a while. But I want the simple life man. Work hard, come home to my beautiful wife and kids, and live the life my god wants me to. Walk his path.

Faith and prayer are very strong tools. I suggest those who are struggling to use them.
 
So so happy to hear you're doing so well! Very encouraging and I'm so proud, we all are <3
 
SineWaveSoldier said:
Hi Dark Siders. I've been off here for a while for good reason. I've moved in with my girl, and am expecting my first child with her next summer.
I've been staying relatively clean, no cocaine or opiates or benzos at all.
I have just been offered the most amazing job opportunity. Making crazy money. Traveling on the road setting up new department stores, staying in beach condos most of the time with a $700 per wek per diam and just stacking money to start a life with the most amazing girl that I love more than I've ever loved any woman in my life.

I've been getting DJ gigs, shits going good. I've regained my spirituality and pray on a regular basis. It feels like God is rewarding me for all the strife I've encountered in my life. Its a miracle I'm alive; and I've always known I am here for a reason. Now I have that reason, and purpose, to use the drive I posess to suceed.

I was the worst kind of Junkie, I took it to the edge and even fell off that edge a few times. I've od'd and flatlined before. My prayers and wishes to live a peaceful life I believe are possibly finally being answered.

I've been suicidal so many times, but for all of you struggling just hold the fuck on like I did. I lost 20 pounds from not eating, cause i was broke. But i stayed off the hard shit and put my head down and soldiered on. You can too.
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Damn I love reading that. That surely is a nice story. So rare to hear things ending up well, especially that well. A ray of light, inspiring indeed. :) Thank you and keep it up!!!
 
Good stuff!!!
This is the perfect thread to start off my morning.
You're full of inspiration, thanks a lot for updating us :)
And you are going to be a daddy??! That's seriously amazing! Congratulations to you and your girl (who also sounds perfect for you).
:)
 
herbavore said:
Sinewave, that is wonderful. I'm so glad to hear that things are looking up for you. Congratulations on the little one. I think you are rewarding yourself with faith in yourself. I really believe that the ingredients to create a good life are within all of us no matter what circumstances befall us. As RR said, you never know what will be around the corner. When you get that sure center inside you, you can be light as feather or hunker down and be a rock--whatever the situation calls for. It's important to remember that only you can ever take that away. I'm really, really happy for you, man! You worked hard to get where you are.(((<3)))
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Thank you, and I want to thank you for being a beacon of light and hope herbavore. You truly help people with pretty much every post on here. You're an amazing woman. I'm serious.
 
tripnotyzm said:
Good stuff!!!
This is the perfect thread to start off my morning.
You're full of inspiration, thanks a lot for updating us :)
And you are going to be a daddy??! That's seriously amazing! Congratulations to you and your girl (who also sounds perfect for you).
:)
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God is she perfect for me. We were born a day apart, same year. We are so alike.
We were talking to one of our friends and her ex the other day, he's like I always knew you guys would be together. I moved away 5 years ago and he told her that he knew I was in love with her back then.
I've told her the same thing it was crazy that he said it to her lol.

I'm building a life and starting a family with the girl of my dreams. Its so exciting. Fuck drugs.
 
Hell yes. I'm in a similar situation myself, kicked dope 2.5 years ago and now I almost got my degree and I'm already getting job offers for 70-80g's a year.

But the real benefits are being spiritually correct, relationships, achieving goals, being able to do anything positive for anyone else that doesn't involve chemical kicks for your brain.

Keep at it man, congrats!
 
Disraeli_Beers said:
Hell yes. I'm in a similar situation myself, kicked dope 2.5 years ago and now I almost got my degree and I'm already getting job offers for 70-80g's a year.

But the real benefits are being spiritually correct, relationships, achieving goals, being able to do anything positive for anyone else that doesn't involve chemical kicks for your brain.

Keep at it man, congrats!
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Thx.

And yes those are the real benefits. Word for word that is what makes my life complete and my soul satisfied. Before I had no soul, It was asleep. Not anymore :)
 
God truly is the 'great redeemer,' He gave me a purpose in life after I spend 10 years aimlessly following my own self-destructive path. It's nice to hear an encouraging post, congrats to you TC, never look back.
 
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