blue valentine
Bluelighter
OK, I want to specify here at the start-I'm not looking for a "source", I just want some general opinions about my situation. Thank you!!!
Hi, I am new and I'm not even sure where to post this. This is mostly my introduction, and I'm kind of looking for some advice. I lived in st. louis for the past ten years with my husband, and I have recently relocated to chicago (my hometown) to live with my parents because of my husband's sudden death. We were in a car accident one year ago which killed my wonderful husband, but for some reason spared me. Trust me I have lots of issues from this, which I might go into another time, but for now I'm looking for a few opinions regarding my personal drug situation.
When we lived in stl we had an awesome dealer, a guy we had been steady going to for years. Quality stuff, great service, and it came "raw" (obviously not completely raw, but it was not crap). So we were set up pretty good, and my hubby had a little side business going on, so all was good. Unfortunately nothing good ever lasts, and last year we had the accident that stole my husband from me at just 28 years old. Right after he died, I actually quit for awhile because I really didn't even have the energy to keep using. Then some time passed, and I got right back on. No lectures please I know that using won't change what happened but it gives me relief.
Thing is, I moved from stl to chicago to stay with my parents so I wouldn't be alone. I haven't lived in chicago for over ten years and don't know ANYONE here so I have no connect here. I do know some general spots that I've been to years before. But basically, I have been still going back to stl to get my dope. This involves a pretty long train or bus ride (I don't have a car) and a lot of hassle. But, I know and trust my guy and I'm able to get quantity from him without worry. But this travelling from chicago to stl is getting ridiculous in my mind. I am in chicago! So is dope! I am thinking about trying to find something here. Obviously I would start small and hope to build something better, or at least have somewhere to go in between trips.
But I'm kind of worried-I'm a white girl, and I would probably have to walk down a certain street to cop. My current situation with the guy in stl is so nice and safe. Don't get me wrong, I've copped off the street before, but never alone. Or without a car. Any advice about my situation? What would you do in my shoes?
It was really cool to find this board, I've been reading the archives and I hope to meet some like-minded people. This has been a long, lonely year for me and I'm starting to feel like I'm ready to make some friends. I am basically starting over (against my will, but here I am). Thanks everyone!
Hi, I am new and I'm not even sure where to post this. This is mostly my introduction, and I'm kind of looking for some advice. I lived in st. louis for the past ten years with my husband, and I have recently relocated to chicago (my hometown) to live with my parents because of my husband's sudden death. We were in a car accident one year ago which killed my wonderful husband, but for some reason spared me. Trust me I have lots of issues from this, which I might go into another time, but for now I'm looking for a few opinions regarding my personal drug situation.
When we lived in stl we had an awesome dealer, a guy we had been steady going to for years. Quality stuff, great service, and it came "raw" (obviously not completely raw, but it was not crap). So we were set up pretty good, and my hubby had a little side business going on, so all was good. Unfortunately nothing good ever lasts, and last year we had the accident that stole my husband from me at just 28 years old. Right after he died, I actually quit for awhile because I really didn't even have the energy to keep using. Then some time passed, and I got right back on. No lectures please I know that using won't change what happened but it gives me relief.
Thing is, I moved from stl to chicago to stay with my parents so I wouldn't be alone. I haven't lived in chicago for over ten years and don't know ANYONE here so I have no connect here. I do know some general spots that I've been to years before. But basically, I have been still going back to stl to get my dope. This involves a pretty long train or bus ride (I don't have a car) and a lot of hassle. But, I know and trust my guy and I'm able to get quantity from him without worry. But this travelling from chicago to stl is getting ridiculous in my mind. I am in chicago! So is dope! I am thinking about trying to find something here. Obviously I would start small and hope to build something better, or at least have somewhere to go in between trips.
But I'm kind of worried-I'm a white girl, and I would probably have to walk down a certain street to cop. My current situation with the guy in stl is so nice and safe. Don't get me wrong, I've copped off the street before, but never alone. Or without a car. Any advice about my situation? What would you do in my shoes?
It was really cool to find this board, I've been reading the archives and I hope to meet some like-minded people. This has been a long, lonely year for me and I'm starting to feel like I'm ready to make some friends. I am basically starting over (against my will, but here I am). Thanks everyone!
