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apneatic

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So this is my story..

I am a 23yo stay at home mother of a 20 month old toddler. I have dabbled in drugs since 18years old, just E's in the beginning then was introduced to meth while i worked at a nightclub. I did it on and off until I fell pregnant at 20 and had my son at 21. I didnt 'party' until my son was 9 or so months old. Wasnt interested in E's anymore so had a bit of meth, stayed up a couple of nights, felt shit for a week or so after and insisted I was never going to do any again!
Until one afternoon I got home to my partner high as a
kite on some meth he got from his good friend for free! So we got high, stayed up, came down etc etc.
We kept the leftover bag of meth hidden at home until another time but since then weve got on it most weekends, and me being a stay at home mum, bored
out of my brain, have started to dive into the baggy every other day, usually starting in the mornings (before my son wakes up) so I will eventually come down by evening so am able to sleep.
I know I need to stop this before I finish the bag, my partner finds out and I end up addicted! and cant stop.
I never EVER neglect my son he always comes first, and I know for sure in no way does
this make me a bad parent I am at the end of the day a bored
stay at home mum/housewife just getting high for fun.
 
Firstly, welcome to BL! I hope you enjoy your time here! BL can certainly help aid in boredom as there is alot of good material here to read :)

Im not going to scold you for your use around a newborn child, but I would kindly ask that you reconsider what you are doing. You are your own person. But your child needs you to be in top notch condition as it is a full time job.

If you want to get some great advice and support, I suggest checking out The Dark Side where you can get alot of great advice and support from a very warm community there.

Have fun and happy BL'ing!
 
Thanks and, I know how it must sound using whilst having a child in my care, but he is always cared for properly, nothing is ever done in front of or while he is awake. I actually look after him better and have more patience for him. Yes this sounds like im justifying my actions and I probably am so Im hoping I can meet more people in the same
situation as me on here to talk to.
 
Hi apneatic, welcome to Bluelight from another fellow Aussie! :)
aveoturbo is right, The Dark Side is a very hospitible and non-judgemental little community, please feel free to post in there. Otherwise I wish you all the strength in the world to resist meth. Be strong hun, you're on the right track by acknowledging that it's not a good path to be taking.
Have you thought about openly telling your partner about how much you've been using?? Perhaps it will be easier with his support?
Take care hun <3
 
Welcome to bluelight. I'm sorry to hear about your issue, meth is a very hard drug to break off from, but all of us at the dark side have faith that this is something that you can do :) Feel free to PM me with any questions or if you simply just want to talk. I can only imagine how tough the situation that you are in is.

Happy posting! -

Badfish
 
Welcome!!! :)
No worries,here love. you are in the right place.Telling your story is exactly what Bluelight is for. I know you would benefit from The Dark Side forum. It is full of loving and caring people just like you who have similar struggles. You are a good mom to want to face the facts and change. The hardest step is asking for help-and through your intro,that is basically EXACTLY what you have done. Good for you!:D
Check out the Dark Side and if you have any questions,please feel free to PM me or ANY member of staff. WE are here to help;)
Truly hope to see you around the site!!!

MUCH peace and love........................skillz <3
 
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