hi everyone

[patchcornadams]

Hi guys,


i found this site when looking up info about ecstasy addiction.

last night i had a horrible buzz on ecstasy which made me realise ive been popping pills way too much during the week the past 3 months.

i looked up withdrawl symptoms people have reported and ive gotten most of em:

depression
suicidal thoughts (dont plan to do anything, the thoughts are just there)
anxiety
paranoia
anxiety/panic attacks
hot and cold flushes (probably whatever its been cut with causing that)
severe fatigue
insomnia
bad body tremors
slight fevers
and cravings to pop more pills.

ive had the withdrawls the past 2 months from when ive no pills.

but i only realised that last night that it was due to E.

knowing whats causing it made today nearly very painful. ive been fighting the urge to buy pills and it didnt help some dealer heard me say it to a friend and tried selling me 3 pills for roughly 6.55 each.

i didnt crack but today was horrible. i was in so much physical and emotional stress. booked into the drug treatment clinic for next week. my friends have been very supportive ad have faith i can gove up the addiction.

 

[wezface]

Sounds like you've had quite a ride. Welcome to bluelight and I'm glad you're here though! Definitely go check out the sober living and Dark Side subforums for some support in quitting and staying clean and the issues associated with those. Good luck!