Hi everyone,am new to bluelight but i have been reading the posts offline

[babgee]

Let me introduce myself first
I am a kenyan who lives in Tanzania,works with an advertisement company,a father toa beautiful daughter who means the world to me but seems like i have failed her
Am new to this so i might slow at first but i have been struggling with depression and some sort of panic attacks on and off,my girlfriend of four years broke up with me so long ago but am still stuck loving her and my life has become a complete mess.. Its been four + yrs since tje break up but still hurts like the first second after hearing those words
I need help,please

 

[RDP89]

Welcome to Bluelight. What is it that you need help with?

 

[babgee]

I need help with help to move on and change my life.. find happiness

Welcome to Bluelight. What is it that you need help with?

I really want to move on but whenever i tell myself that now am moving on,it lasts for a couple of days or weeks then am back to the old messed up guy av been for the past four years
How do i change my thoughts about her? She has taken 90% of my thoughts

 

[babgee]

Its been so hard for me,life seems meaningless without her..she loved me so much

Welcome to Bluelight. What is it that you need help with?

It seems like i have no control over my thoughts no matter how much I try to. Am so tired of this life am living feeling like I will never be happy.. Having these panic attacks and sleepless nights for all these years makes me feel so helpless