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olRocker

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I am an older guy (man there is no way of stopping time) , just a bit about myself---you ever hear that song "First I was Hippie then I was a stockbroker now I am a Hippie again" ? Well even if you did not it more or less describes me.
I experimented with many types of psychedelics (remember Orange sunshine?) that tells you how far back I go if you know about that. Never did H as that did some of my friends in so I was lucky not to go there when I was younger. But anything else? Yes I did it at one time or another.

I was lucky enough to keep my act together and become more or less successful and I still love my moderate buzz with a mixture of either sativa or indica depending on where I want to go with my buzz that particular day. I was lucky to keep anything I did from becoming my focus in life until I got into an accident and was prescribed an array of pain killers, yeah I started out with Vicodens, then Norco, and then my downfall---OXYS. I was downing OXYS like candy and I actually loved the buzz it gave my in combination with a couple of glasses of a good wine,and some hits of a good sativa sitting in the jacuzzi on a nice evening.
Doesn't that sound good? WELL IT WAS FUCKED! After awhile (about 4 months) I had no more interest in sex, my energy level went downhill and I was getting very moody and all my friends noticed.

Part 2

I decided that that's not what I wanted to go through so I did some research and discovered KRATOM and after trying several strains I ordered a pound of something called MUENG_DA which is a better strain from all reports I researched. I started out with about a couple of teaspoons a day doing the toss and wash method. I put the powder in my mouth, make a paste with a little water then wash it down--it don't take long for the effects to work and you know what? The shit worked!
I actually like the smoothness of the high, and of course the pot/wine/jacuzzi combo was way cool. So after a few Month of that I found that if I didn't get up in the morning and do a toss and wash I was a jittery mess with a WD waking me up in the middle of the night with restless depression along with panic attacks.

So here I am slowing down with that stuff and hoping the Klonopin I was prescribed will help out to ease my jitters and it is working but NOW I am going to try very hard to keep from getting an addiction to these Klonopins

Anyone else go through this and does anyone have any advice for my transition to normalcy?

I found this forum by accident but it looks like I came to the right place after looking at other threads.
Perhaps I can help out with some issues as I have been into most everything excepy H and ecstacy.

Thanks
 
WELCOME! <3... I don't know where to begin. I guess I begin with a YES,I have been where you are now. I got my 2nd opiate addiction after a near fatal car accident almost 6 years ago. Long story short,I lost my job that was on it's way to being my career. I lost my health insurance and my access to opiates. I turned to coping from old connects and people I met through my girlfriend. We lived together for a year in a house that a friend of our was renting while he moved. All I did was shoot up opiates and crystal. The 2 of us were feeding off each others' addictions and it was very unhealthy. I started to dope down a mg a day..or every 2 days..off of IVing opiates. our Crystal Dealer got popped-again and all I had were 30 pills for my ADD to get me through that. I would shoot through my RX-which I had to extract the MPH from-w/in a day or 3 at most every month when I got my refill. The rest of the month I would just lie in bed miserable-my girl and I split and she was seeing another woman. My addiction to shooting up was so bad that I would shoot distilled water if I had nothing else.Eventually I got a nasty abscess that I tried to drain and I ended up w/ a MRSA staph infection and spend 10 days going to an urgent care clinic where they cut dead black flesh from my arm,packed it,wrapped it and said see you tomorrow. I was in hell.
I am still struggling w/ IV use-I do not advocate or encourage anyone to pick up the needle because it an addiction in itself. I am doing much better and I am careful and sterile and practice the proper technique. I can go 2 weeks w/o IVing and then I break. I am not proud,but I am not ashamed either. All my struggles have made me into the woman I am today. I wouldn't change a thing. It all works out in the end.

as far as kratom and sativa,I have tried neither. I have never done RCs(research chemicals) and all I do now is occasionally shoot up and smoke weed. I am Bipolar 1 and am on alot of meds-xanax being one of them. In my opinion,it is better to be on klonopin than some other benzos-it has a long half life and keeps a steady calm over inner storms...or so i've heard. My shrink tried to switch me over to klonopins but I didn't get the instant powerful calm for xanax-unfortunately it has a very short half life and w/ in 4 hours the effects have worn off. I wouldn't stress about the klonopins since you are trying to get off something that I understand is quite addictive. continuing to taper down is the best advice I can give. I don't know much about kratom,but I know people who cannot stop.
This is an unusually long welcome and I wanted it to be public because you never know who you will impact with your story.
Although the substances and circumstances are different for you than me,but quitting is quitting and WDs are WDs.

I recommend you make use of the search engine to research and educate yourself as much as possible. Bluelight had a strong community and there is alot of support here for you.

Check out The Dark Side (TDS)...I think you will find you are not alone. Other than that-just check out any forums that interest you. There are plenty of forums that have nothing to do w/ drugs and it will help keep you occupied. I hope this helps...for what it's worth,you are taking a huge step in regaining your life and you should be proud and draw strength from that pride. Don't get discouraged. You can do it.

I hope to hear more from you and see you around the site...you are in the right place.I wish you luck in your journey here,as well as your journey in life!!! =D
If you have any problems or questions,feel free to PM any Moderator or Senior Staff member. We are here to help.

Much peace and love.................................skillz <3
 
Thanks for your welcome Skillz, I think I had better add that I have started doing the Kratom with teaspoons then I actually used my old prescription bottles to measure out a little over a tablespoon of Mueng-DA (look that up if you don't know what that is). I did my measured containers about 5 times a day to get my normal type feeling as it wasn't a matter of my opiate buzz it was to get where I could cope. What a bunch of balogna so here I am on my third day and I feel like shit! The journey goes on, I kicked a meth habit about 25 years ago and it was hard but easier than this.
More power to you on your journey, I hope you do well.

Captain Heroin, I did a hell of a lot of different batches from the reknown Owsley (look him up) and enjoyed the trips, plus mecaline, peyote and your basic blotter but I don't think I will do the psychs anymore, good trips but not for me at this stage of the game. I still get those awesome flashbacks every now and then!%)
I alway say to each their own though, have fun, but don't hurt anyone is a good motto.
 
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