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Whitecat_X

Whitecat_X

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I've been lurking for a few days and finally decided to register...
drug of choice atm = oxy.........
I'm in the process of weaning off, but can't quite seem to kick it. Every time I think I'm done I find myself trashing my house looking for ones I've stashed in drawers, containers, etc.

I've been on some form of narcotics for over two years now. I started with vic 5/500 2x a day, progressed up from there to norco 10... finally before my last surgery my dr put me on oxy 20 - 2x a day plus vic 5/500 2-4x a day for breakthrough pain. I have chronic pain but really, for the last month or so I've just been taking the Oxys recreationally and using the "pain" as an excuse to keep getting more. :|

Anyway my most recent step down was onto the 5s 1x / day. I haven't had any since Friday morning and I'm jonesing hard. I guess all I'm here for is encouragement and understanding. You can give me advice if you want but I can't promise I'll listen cuz I'm pretty hard-headed and find myself doing things that are bad for me even when I know it's the wrong thing to do.


Worst w/d symptom atm is the feeling like there are bugs crawling under my skin. effing A. :!
oh and the cravings but I expected that.



-anyways- hello and all that.
 
Welcome. I hate that the detox monster ran you screaming into the WD abyss. The good thing is, you have found a wonderful place to aid you in your recovery and gain a wealth of info that WILL help you through your struggle. Oh so many of us are recovering opiate addicts (as well as plenty of other addicts) and we know how horrible these times can be. Searcha the Other Drugs Forum for Opiate WDs threads and you will find PLENTY of reading and relating. The Dark Side is also a nice forum where you can go just to talk through some of your symptoms like depression and what not associated with WD. Good luck and great to have ya!
 
thank you for the warm welcome <3 and for the direction to the other areas here.

It's hard for me to talk about what I'm going through a lot of the time IRL because it seems like if you even mention anything about wds people assume you're a junkie ie therefore worthless therefore friendships lost etc. and of course that kind of hit to my self esteem is not the strength giving acceptance needed to make it through right now. :X

anyways enough ranting, thanks for listening. <3
I will go explore the other places you mentioned now...
 
It is sad that some people tend to be so narrow-minded. Your true friends will stand by you ALWAYS...even when you're wrong. Its easy to take inventory of real friends when you are in need. Hope you are finding everything you need...
 
Welcome to Bluelight :)

Sounds like you found the right forum to post on. Any question and let us know!
 
Whitecat X, have you tried using Loperamide to stop the physical pain and WD symptoms, it is the active ing. in anti-diarrheal meds, OTC and cheap. It works very well, I kicked a NASTY dope habit in 6 days and never went back. It was still bad, but nowhere near as bad as the first time. Careful that you drink alot of water and counteract them with laxatives or you might end up needing a couple enemas in order to take a shit, not fun. This really works, remember the Nirvana song Imodium? They sang about loperamide for a reason, when they ran out of dope and did not want to be sick. Hope that helps ya.
 
Manic Panic said:
Whitecat X, have you tried using Loperamide to stop the physical pain and WD symptoms, it is the active ing. in anti-diarrheal meds, OTC and cheap. It works very well, I kicked a NASTY dope habit in 6 days and never went back. It was still bad, but nowhere near as bad as the first time. Careful that you drink alot of water and counteract them with laxatives or you might end up needing a couple enemas in order to take a shit, not fun. This really works, remember the Nirvana song Imodium? They sang about loperamide for a reason, when they ran out of dope and did not want to be sick. Hope that helps ya.
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Thanks, yeah I've used that in the past.

However this most recent attempt at kicking the habit resulted in me going back after day 3. :|

Now I'm trying to decide whether or not I actually WANT to stay clean ... if not, why the hell not and if so I need to just buckle down and make it happen. :p
 
Thanks for the graphic description of bowel movements Manic Panic :p


How are you enjoying Bluelight Whitecat? Tried using the search engine yet?
 
Klue said:
Thanks for the graphic description of bowel movements Manic Panic :p


How are you enjoying Bluelight Whitecat? Tried using the search engine yet?
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haha ~ about the bowel movements. :p


Klue: bluelight is nice. I feel really at home here.
I haven't tried the search function here.... cuz... I don't think I"ve seen it. :\
Usually when I need to search anything I do google's "what I'm looking for site:___" feature, that works like a charm.
 
^ Yep, I use that for things (non BL related) too. Try our advanced search. You can search within forums or for specific posters threads or posts, and have them displayed as posts too so you don't have to go sifting through pages and pages.

Here is the link http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/search.php

You can find the advanced search link anytime up the top of this page under the 'search' bar, drop down box then advanced search. Glad you like it here :)
 
I am new as well and...

I am also new and going through a very similar situation. My husband and I have been using roxi for the past 2 years. Before that we were on opana for a year and a half. We have tried to quit too any times to count. Coming face to face with the WD's and that feeling like you are going to go insane. The longest we have gone without was once for 2 months and we made the mistake of trying the "moderation is key" thing. For us it doesn't work though for most I know it does. This site has been very helpful in keeping my mind occupied in times of distress.
I know how you feel when you talk about people thinking you are a doper jus bc youre having WDs. It sucks, sometimes it feels like theres not going to be an end but, then again at least we are lucky to be informed...
 
welcome to the Bluelight.....I know too well how it is to be dependent of opiods....I am on pain management myself....good luck to you.....
 
lovelykefyre said:
I am also new and going through a very similar situation. My husband and I have been using roxi for the past 2 years. Before that we were on opana for a year and a half. We have tried to quit too any times to count. Coming face to face with the WD's and that feeling like you are going to go insane. The longest we have gone without was once for 2 months and we made the mistake of trying the "moderation is key" thing. For us it doesn't work though for most I know it does. This site has been very helpful in keeping my mind occupied in times of distress.
I know how you feel when you talk about people thinking you are a doper jus bc youre having WDs. It sucks, sometimes it feels like theres not going to be an end but, then again at least we are lucky to be informed...
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Welcome to bl <3 I'm sorry you're in the same boat but hey at least we're not alone :p

Being with a person who also uses (anything) makes it that much harder to quit (anything) ~~ hence why my bf and I keep un-quitting smoking 8) ... he quits... I start to quit... he sees me smoking, craves, caves in and smokes... I quit, he starts to quit... and so on. 8) I'm sure it's just that much worse with something harder & thank God my man doesn't do my drugs... I don't know how we would both function. :|

anyways welcome and stuff, thanks for jumping in here <3
 
Always hard to quit if neither one is fully dedicated, hope you guys are ok and the cravings aren't as bad now! And hello!
 
krautpout said:
Always hard to quit if neither one is fully dedicated, hope you guys are ok and the cravings aren't as bad now! And hello!
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hey man think you can do me a favor and help me figure out how some of this stuff works on this website? im havin a hard time working things out.:\
 
I'm an ex heroin addict and have been clean for 27 days with the help of suboxone. I would really like to share my knowledge with the people of this website and learn new things from others but i dont seem to be able to write a PM or even find a forum that is actively being used. for all i know im just talking to myself right now. kind of unnerving. well if someone does happen to read this please respond so i dont feel so helpless and stupid.
 
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