First of all i want say hi to everyone!
I've found this site while looking for a solution for my alcohol addiction.
Since in this section i have to introduce myself, I'm going to tell the whole story, well, i will try to summarize, It's too long.
I has been treated for depression first doc, bipolar disorder second doc, anxiety depressive status third doc, borderline disorder fourth doctor.
My main problem since the beginnin was anxyety and panic attack, that I' ve developed after a bad trip with LSD.
For every doctor this was an excuse for my depression....
I has never been addict to nothing, only to nicotine, I've had my experiece, but I've never been addicted to a certain sustance.
Until the fourth doctor, i was under 7.5mg of lorazeman 2mg of alprazolam, 5mg of Chlordiazepoxide, 14 mg of Amitriptyline Hydrochloride and 10mg of seropram.
I was a zombie, overweight, and so anxious that i could no go out from my home...
This untill 3/4 years ago, when i saw the fourth doctor. The doctor prescribed 10mg daily of escitalopram and 6 mg of clonazepam, so what he did was basically remove all the benzo in one day.
The first month has been terrible, really, even smoking a cigarette cold cause me a panick attack, but after I felt with zero anxyety, no panic attack, was incredible but something was wrong.
First I lost my appetite, I always thought it was due to the fact the for almost a decade I've ate under the influece of chemical hunger, anyway lost about 15Kg in two month...not a problem for the doc, but something else was going to happen.
I've starting having nasty pain in my legs, cramps, and during a session of stretching ( even when i was overwheight I've always trained) I felt a nasty pain in my hip. Two days later the pain was also in my left testicle, ater two weeks the pain was in my left back, left hip,lef testicle, and left leg.
I don't remeber everything but after another month my ulnar nerve got dislocated, and the doc said me that a surgical opertaion was needed...great.
Anyway I could manage the problem at my ulnar nerve with some elastic bands and so I focused on my back and the pain in the left testicle.
Went to the urologist for the testicle he said "you have nothing", saw several orthopedic, i can't remeber hoh many Magnetic resonance imaging i did, always negative. As today some days I have no pain, other days the whole leg, my hip, my back and my testicle hurts like hell. But what i want point out is that I have this nasty pain in the left testicle only when the pain in the hip or left back start.
After one year seeing doctor I gave up, I mean nothing helped me, several cycle of Cortisone, high dosage of fans nothing, nothing could stop the pain, so right now I live with this pain.
I've talked with the doctor about this problem, he told me that was nothing, first prescriped me Tizanidine ( took only one time and after 1 hour i fallen asleep), then baclofen (did nothing), at least he prescribed me chlorpromazine hydrochloride and this time i told him go hell.....
So to summarize, no anxyety, but not appetite, weight loss, and nerves pain....
About my alcohol addiction.
I'm 38 and I've never had problem with alcohol, even with all the pains my mood was great, I mean, I was with zero anxyety, but escitalopram as well clonazepam literally killed my libido, futhermore my appetite was litteraly absent.
One night was out and I drank some beer, well the pain was almost gone ( I still remeber that night!)
I've starting dating with some girls and my plan was simple, if there was a chance to have sex I did not take escitalopram and clonazepam, maybe only 1mg of clonazepam
and the night some drink. Alcohol even at high dosage doesn't affect my sexuality, i don't have problem mantaining an erection, I know, it's weired, but it's the true.
I don't remember how has been possible, but drinking to relief my pain became routine, only Friday and Saturday at first, then also the other days.
Whath was weired, was my ability to drink a lot, without understing that I was totally druk, a years ago on one forum some guys said that clonazepam cause derealization, and you can end up drunk without noticing. Anyway i reached the point when one night I've drinked almost a whole bottle of wiskey...I don't remeber nothig it was a total black out, and right now i can easily drink half bottle of vodka, so I've built a high tolerance.
Someone may ask, why when you noticed all this pain you didn't change drugs? I didn't because mentally I felt very good.
Now for me it's time to change, it's like my joint are stiff and dry, when i move my neck I can feel my vertebrae creak, and i don't know how explain this, but do you know when just for joke you do a grimace of pain opening your mouth pulling the nerves of the throat, well several time some nerves remain contracted and I have to gently massage it.
Now I will start from my last problem, I'm not drinking but I know that on the fifth day without alcohol I will start craving, but I'm sure I can handle it.
What I'm looking on this board, is knoledge , try to figure out what's happened to my join and nerves and what caused it.
Sorry for the long post, and excuse me for my bad english.
I've found this site while looking for a solution for my alcohol addiction.
Since in this section i have to introduce myself, I'm going to tell the whole story, well, i will try to summarize, It's too long.
I has been treated for depression first doc, bipolar disorder second doc, anxiety depressive status third doc, borderline disorder fourth doctor.
My main problem since the beginnin was anxyety and panic attack, that I' ve developed after a bad trip with LSD.
For every doctor this was an excuse for my depression....
I has never been addict to nothing, only to nicotine, I've had my experiece, but I've never been addicted to a certain sustance.
Until the fourth doctor, i was under 7.5mg of lorazeman 2mg of alprazolam, 5mg of Chlordiazepoxide, 14 mg of Amitriptyline Hydrochloride and 10mg of seropram.
I was a zombie, overweight, and so anxious that i could no go out from my home...
This untill 3/4 years ago, when i saw the fourth doctor. The doctor prescribed 10mg daily of escitalopram and 6 mg of clonazepam, so what he did was basically remove all the benzo in one day.
The first month has been terrible, really, even smoking a cigarette cold cause me a panick attack, but after I felt with zero anxyety, no panic attack, was incredible but something was wrong.
First I lost my appetite, I always thought it was due to the fact the for almost a decade I've ate under the influece of chemical hunger, anyway lost about 15Kg in two month...not a problem for the doc, but something else was going to happen.
I've starting having nasty pain in my legs, cramps, and during a session of stretching ( even when i was overwheight I've always trained) I felt a nasty pain in my hip. Two days later the pain was also in my left testicle, ater two weeks the pain was in my left back, left hip,lef testicle, and left leg.
I don't remeber everything but after another month my ulnar nerve got dislocated, and the doc said me that a surgical opertaion was needed...great.
Anyway I could manage the problem at my ulnar nerve with some elastic bands and so I focused on my back and the pain in the left testicle.
Went to the urologist for the testicle he said "you have nothing", saw several orthopedic, i can't remeber hoh many Magnetic resonance imaging i did, always negative. As today some days I have no pain, other days the whole leg, my hip, my back and my testicle hurts like hell. But what i want point out is that I have this nasty pain in the left testicle only when the pain in the hip or left back start.
After one year seeing doctor I gave up, I mean nothing helped me, several cycle of Cortisone, high dosage of fans nothing, nothing could stop the pain, so right now I live with this pain.
I've talked with the doctor about this problem, he told me that was nothing, first prescriped me Tizanidine ( took only one time and after 1 hour i fallen asleep), then baclofen (did nothing), at least he prescribed me chlorpromazine hydrochloride and this time i told him go hell.....
So to summarize, no anxyety, but not appetite, weight loss, and nerves pain....
About my alcohol addiction.
I'm 38 and I've never had problem with alcohol, even with all the pains my mood was great, I mean, I was with zero anxyety, but escitalopram as well clonazepam literally killed my libido, futhermore my appetite was litteraly absent.
One night was out and I drank some beer, well the pain was almost gone ( I still remeber that night!)
I've starting dating with some girls and my plan was simple, if there was a chance to have sex I did not take escitalopram and clonazepam, maybe only 1mg of clonazepam
and the night some drink. Alcohol even at high dosage doesn't affect my sexuality, i don't have problem mantaining an erection, I know, it's weired, but it's the true.
I don't remember how has been possible, but drinking to relief my pain became routine, only Friday and Saturday at first, then also the other days.
Whath was weired, was my ability to drink a lot, without understing that I was totally druk, a years ago on one forum some guys said that clonazepam cause derealization, and you can end up drunk without noticing. Anyway i reached the point when one night I've drinked almost a whole bottle of wiskey...I don't remeber nothig it was a total black out, and right now i can easily drink half bottle of vodka, so I've built a high tolerance.
Someone may ask, why when you noticed all this pain you didn't change drugs? I didn't because mentally I felt very good.
Now for me it's time to change, it's like my joint are stiff and dry, when i move my neck I can feel my vertebrae creak, and i don't know how explain this, but do you know when just for joke you do a grimace of pain opening your mouth pulling the nerves of the throat, well several time some nerves remain contracted and I have to gently massage it.
Now I will start from my last problem, I'm not drinking but I know that on the fifth day without alcohol I will start craving, but I'm sure I can handle it.
What I'm looking on this board, is knoledge , try to figure out what's happened to my join and nerves and what caused it.
Sorry for the long post, and excuse me for my bad english.
