Hi... 4 Days Into Subutex Detox and Hoping For Support.

[Noddia]

Hi...I have used the name 'Noddia' on here as that was the name many former "friends" used to save my number in their phones. I could usually be found nodding out, so I suppose it was appropriate. That seems like a lifetime ago and those are not days that I glorify. I had my "good times" (as I saw them then), but it was the darkest road that I have ever been down. It all ended, and life began, for me when I met my now- husband. He has been my motivation, strength and support through every difficulty I've had in the past four years. I was a heroin addict when we met. He has never done a drug in his life. We became best friends immediately, despite the circumstances. I fell in love for the first time in my life and, because he is so wonderful, he made me want to be a better person. I sought help for my addiction and on 1/28/2013 I did my last shot of heroin. I have since switched from methadone to Subutex and I took my last dose of 2 mgs 5 days ago. I know that's a high dose to jump from, but when all you have are the 8 mg pills, what choice do you have? I was going to a clinic, getting 2 week take-homes at a time. I had reduced my dose from 28 to 16mgs per day and decided "enough is enough". I'm not on these mess to prevent me from using my DOC...those days are long behind me (new city, new environment, NO old "friends"). I solowly tapered to 2mgs and jumped on Sunday. I have zero energy and I feel bad when I wake up, but it's been nothing like the horror stories I've read. Am I just blessed, or is the worst yet to come? I would be grateful for any thoughts you have. I'm thankful to have found this community!
"I am surrendering to gravity and the unknown..." ~ APC