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BlaqMamba

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never thought i would be here...<sighs> but for what's it's worth.

Hi guys/gurls/insert here,
Been doing my thang for while till the mid 20's i was a raver/dj/dancer so drugs were nothing new- i done most but never interveinius. During that time of their life i would rather trip than nod off only using opiates for the recovery days after festivals and events.. never dreamed i would be facing an epidemic a lil down the road. Very uncharacteristically unlikely of me.. then they met her. .and by her i means HER, sugar brown sometimes dressed in sexy fetty white all rigged up ready to go ya dig. That was 6 years ago. I became a high functioning addict..
Recently just split from a partner, a partner in crime no doubt. Someone who shared in the ritual. After all, it is a ritual, it becomes one. "Finally a break in the cycle" i cried "the chance to revert". Been about time i got back to life, back to living, back to some type of normalcy right? RIGHT! Not that easy heh..binge.. clean for a while...binge...clean rinse and repeat..fucking tough.
So why am I here?? Cuz its 730am and I'm on 2nd day of subs again and Insomnia is a whore.😂 so close but yet so far. stay blessed.
 
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Welcome to Bluelight @BlaqMamba!

Glad to have you with us. Check out Health and Recovery for addiction support, if you'd like. It's hard to tackle on your own, and we'll be here for you.

We don't use SWIM here, so I'll edit those out for you.

And if you're sick of talking about drugs, we have plenty of non drug related forums for you to just shoot the shit.

See you around!
 
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