Hey,
I have looked at the site often, and after my relocation from Chicago to my home state, a.k.a. hell or Montana, I developed an even worse opiate addiction and met someone in school who introduced me to needles, super! Haven't used them for 3 months, but still using opiates. Also have OCD, which opiates are actually very effective in treating, and dissociative panic disorder. I was on 4 to 8 mg of Xanax for 8 years, my psychiatrist retired, and was replaced with a Nurse Practitioner who decided she doesn't like benzo's. Sadly, they are the only thing that allow me to function, especially since I'm not shooting. I'm sure I'm addicted to them as well, but since she cut me down to 2 mg a day, I have been scared to leave me house. I have phobia's returning that I had completely forgotten. I was in nursing school and preparing myself to join the peace corps, no need to laugh! But I had to quit this semester and I can count the number of times I've left my house in the last four months on my hands. I feel bad, my friends feel like I'm ignoring them, I had to break up with my boyfriend, and to be able to go out, I have to take a mass amount of opiates (snorting not shooting). At this point the snorting isn't enough,, I'm afraid I will return to shooting them...I can't find another psychiatrist who has an opening for 6 months...idk what to do! The Nurse Practitioner hates me, and I was half an hour late for an appointment so she said she wouldn't refill my meds and I couldn't get an appt. for a month, or I can sit in her office and see if she has a cancelation. She's not even a real Doctor, I was pre-med when I was first in school, I know just as much if not more about it than her. She dislikes me on a personal level, well I feel she does because she was really nice the first time then she saw my Star of David on my neck, and it went downhill fast. She said she was changing my therapy, wanted to put me on meds for bi-polar *I'm not* take me off my Adderall and Xanax, then she said I had to take a drug test. I asked her what I would have to do if I didn't agree with her therapy, she said find a different doctor. Well she knew damn well I would have trouble finding one. I called the office and asked to see another provider, and she had told the office manager I left because I didn't want to take a drug test, which is bullshit. Yes I would have tested positive for opiates but I have a few scripts for it. So I ended up in the E.R. so as not to have a seizure from Xanax detox and ended up in a psych ward. Wasn't awful at all really, but she was the "Dr." there, but I never saw her because I was taken to the E.R. from the psych place because I got a headache then became weak, so the point I couldn't stand, I had an abnormal cscan was life flighted to a diff. hospital, it was a nightmare. I did see her after that, she "relented" to give me .5 mg of Xanax four times a day. I take 2 milligrams at a time. I see her soon...and I am going to have to suggest something, she doesn't like Xanax...maybe Ativan? Valium? They all work, not like Xanax and Klonipin doesn't work. I am so lost what to do, if anyone has any advise, I would be so thankful. I'm usually a pretty laid back person lol but now I am desperate.
I have looked at the site often, and after my relocation from Chicago to my home state, a.k.a. hell or Montana, I developed an even worse opiate addiction and met someone in school who introduced me to needles, super! Haven't used them for 3 months, but still using opiates. Also have OCD, which opiates are actually very effective in treating, and dissociative panic disorder. I was on 4 to 8 mg of Xanax for 8 years, my psychiatrist retired, and was replaced with a Nurse Practitioner who decided she doesn't like benzo's. Sadly, they are the only thing that allow me to function, especially since I'm not shooting. I'm sure I'm addicted to them as well, but since she cut me down to 2 mg a day, I have been scared to leave me house. I have phobia's returning that I had completely forgotten. I was in nursing school and preparing myself to join the peace corps, no need to laugh! But I had to quit this semester and I can count the number of times I've left my house in the last four months on my hands. I feel bad, my friends feel like I'm ignoring them, I had to break up with my boyfriend, and to be able to go out, I have to take a mass amount of opiates (snorting not shooting). At this point the snorting isn't enough,, I'm afraid I will return to shooting them...I can't find another psychiatrist who has an opening for 6 months...idk what to do! The Nurse Practitioner hates me, and I was half an hour late for an appointment so she said she wouldn't refill my meds and I couldn't get an appt. for a month, or I can sit in her office and see if she has a cancelation. She's not even a real Doctor, I was pre-med when I was first in school, I know just as much if not more about it than her. She dislikes me on a personal level, well I feel she does because she was really nice the first time then she saw my Star of David on my neck, and it went downhill fast. She said she was changing my therapy, wanted to put me on meds for bi-polar *I'm not* take me off my Adderall and Xanax, then she said I had to take a drug test. I asked her what I would have to do if I didn't agree with her therapy, she said find a different doctor. Well she knew damn well I would have trouble finding one. I called the office and asked to see another provider, and she had told the office manager I left because I didn't want to take a drug test, which is bullshit. Yes I would have tested positive for opiates but I have a few scripts for it. So I ended up in the E.R. so as not to have a seizure from Xanax detox and ended up in a psych ward. Wasn't awful at all really, but she was the "Dr." there, but I never saw her because I was taken to the E.R. from the psych place because I got a headache then became weak, so the point I couldn't stand, I had an abnormal cscan was life flighted to a diff. hospital, it was a nightmare. I did see her after that, she "relented" to give me .5 mg of Xanax four times a day. I take 2 milligrams at a time. I see her soon...and I am going to have to suggest something, she doesn't like Xanax...maybe Ativan? Valium? They all work, not like Xanax and Klonipin doesn't work. I am so lost what to do, if anyone has any advise, I would be so thankful. I'm usually a pretty laid back person lol but now I am desperate.
