I'm not to sure how to navigate this site, my story is I've been using opiates for 3-5 years on and off…August 09 2013 was the first time i really got a lot of sobriety at least to me, a little over a year.. Idk why i went back to what i was doing, I was in no position to relapse as i just gotten my first apartment so with working a lot i was distracted by work and my gf who i shared my apt with… When i got laid off i was doing nothing just paying my rent out of my bank account and two weeks later i see myself in trouble hanging with old friends and picked up again, and with that over the long time off did my tolerance go down. Well I went on basically a six month run (snorting H never IV'ed) Now that i stopped do to my bank being basically broke spending basically $3,000+ I'm stopping so i took a piece of sub i'm going to try to not use and save up my rent money and pay my credit card off this month. Thankfully my lease for my apt is up in March so i can stop worrying about coming up with all this money, and Ill basically go back to the beginning and began to save up money all over again..
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I'm sorry to hear this..myself and my husband are about to lose our apartment because of our use of drugs..I've been doing stuff for a short period of time..and I'm now just starting to get withdrawals..my husband has been going through addiction for a couple years now..we did good for a little and then everything went down hill..lost our cable..really behind on rent..cellphones shut off we have decided to move and get ourselves clean..it will take sometime but we can do it & so can you 
just keep your head up and stay positive..everything will get better
just keep your head up and stay positive..everything will get better Thank you scc2015 for your response, I know we can get through it, i'm hoping for the best. Im in the battle alone I can't tell my girlfriend because she would be so disappointed in me and i don't want to do that to her. She already has so much stress on her plate. She's going back to school, working all the time to pay her half of the rent. I'm wanting to get high already, I took my last dose of H i snorted two bags just to ween down Dec 30th around 830am because i had to get my teeth cleaned. I was doing 10-12bags a day.. Dec 29th I did 5-6 bags… Now its January 1st, i didn't take any suboxone today. I took my first piece of suboxone a little over 24hours after my last dose of H, and then stupidly last night idk why I did it but i snorted a suboxone film not a lot maybe 1-2mg i just cut it up into tiny pieces and snorted it then snorted some water afterwards, I'm not going to say I got high i just felt normal. So i'm thinking if it worked or didn't work because I want to know if I'm out of the woods with the withdrawals yet or not.. I don't think I am at all, I'm going to try not to take anymore suboxone and just try to ride it out.
I tried to just to get threw my withdrawals but couldn't seem to do it..so I ended up snorting H. I end up having all this guilt about it every time I do it. Also it may disappoint her but keep in he back of your mind that..if you do tell her you may feel better like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders..before I got into this mess..my husband wouldn't tell me and that's what disappointed me..when he would tell me I would be very understanding about it..try sitting her down and talking with her..you need her support just as much as she needs yours..she could help you through this maybe try going to counseling or go to aa meetings..aa meetings help my husband out a lot & that's what helped him stay clean for 7 months..keep your head up and try to sit down with her and talk..just tell her you need her help and support she may be very understanding
maybe try going to counseling or go to aa meetings..aa meetings help my husband out a lot & that's what helped him stay clean for 7 months..keep your head up and try to sit down with her and talk..just tell her you need her help and support she may be very understanding
Hey and welcome,
Suboxone is pretty long lasting so Im afraid youre not out of the woods yet. One thing I wanted to say that even if suboxone was the get out of jail 4 free -card, im not sure if that the best thing. I have gotten the card from using various methods playing with opiates before and felt like i did not suffer enough and just got things for free, which led me back very quickly. Certain amount of pain is needed in withdrawal, maybe that is just me i dunno but I do need it to even remotely succeed.
Now you can you the bupe to do a short like 5-7 day taper to get minimal discomfort. But given you would get away with minimal discomfort do you think this would help you keep off and not coming back to the hell hole any time soon? Thats the real issue here.
Suboxone is pretty long lasting so Im afraid youre not out of the woods yet. One thing I wanted to say that even if suboxone was the get out of jail 4 free -card, im not sure if that the best thing. I have gotten the card from using various methods playing with opiates before and felt like i did not suffer enough and just got things for free, which led me back very quickly. Certain amount of pain is needed in withdrawal, maybe that is just me i dunno but I do need it to even remotely succeed.
Now you can you the bupe to do a short like 5-7 day taper to get minimal discomfort. But given you would get away with minimal discomfort do you think this would help you keep off and not coming back to the hell hole any time soon? Thats the real issue here.